08/02/2025
As I write this, I am still in my 40's and have never cared too much about aging. Or what the number is. But 50, for some reason has me totally freaked out. It's more about how much less life I have left then anything else and retirement seeming so much closer is also worrying - I can't imagine my life without my job, I can't imagine how we would live well on what our pensions could possibly be.. These thoughts have been tearing around in my head the last few weeks. Until I chatted to a friend who also celebrates her 50th in February this year, we have been friends since out teens. She told me about the challenge she was doing for herself, 50 things before she turns 50! We chatted about a lot of other things too, but I decided to shift the focus of my 50 dread and decided to start celebrating instead. 50 things for Caroline! 50 intentional things that I could do that would bring me and others joy and happiness. Things that I could add to my life that could increase my intentions of living a meaningful life.
Coffee has featured high on my list, contacting people when I think of them, organising a 50th celebration, picking flowers for myself and others, driving my poor coworkers insane with this week's countdown of my last Monday in my 40's etc etc, walking barefoot in the garden every morning, reading a book, starting to journal, listening to more music, going for a pedicure, celebrating the little Caroline who had to be so brave, being so grateful for the little family that Joss and I created:my kids are truly two of my biggest joys, acknowledging the love that I have for my amazing Mom, my sister and her family are always in my thoughts and again I have just celebrated their existence and the love that I have for them, I have tipped the car guards a little extra these last few days and their gratitude is such an incredible selfish boost. I have spent quiet time listing all the friends that I have, not acquaintance's but real genuine friends who have supported and loved me through thick and thin! A mind blowing blessing are my friends. My list and intentions will probably reach over 50 and perhaps will continue until my end days.
I have been blessed with a rich, exciting, rewarding life. I have learnt so much through so many challenges. I am now ready to brave 50 tomorrow. To not allow fear to cripple me but to be brave and live the years that I get blessed with! To keep on chatting, to keep on teaching, to keep on loving, to keep on learning, to keep on giving, to keep on keeping on!
Much love
Caro ♥️🎈🎂🥂