06/26/2023
In my 40’s I enjoyed the gray hair emerging, the creases forming on my face, the weathering skin. I thought it made me look rugged, seasoned, well used.
Now in my 70’s, some days I am displeased by what I see in the mirror. What was rugged looks worn, what was weathered looks corroded, what was patina borders on pathetic.
But isn’t this the good story? To age and grow older, to wrinkle, sag, crack, creak, snap, crackle and pop! Sometimes my body sounds like a bowl of Rice Krispies in the morning! Still, as the sages of the Talmud taught, an hour of life is still life! We all have friends and family who never had the chance to grow older, who would be happy to have a day of arthritis, weak limbs, declining vigor, fading eyesight, difficulty hearing, stiffness of motion.
For while the body is a passing show, the spirit is an ascendant glory. The everyday joys of blue sky, green leaves, golden sun; the smile of a child who has nothing but possibility ahead; the satisfaction of a new skill learned in our 8th or 9th decade, the earned pride in a project well done, a life well lived-and living.
No, I would not trade, for all my youth, the fire and glory that is in me now. As my body thins, fades, becomes translucent, the light within me shines through ever more brightly, illuminating my face and path forward, until I join with the Light of All Light. For the body is just matter, light slowed down to the point of visibility and touch. As I age, I pick up more speed with every passing year, and more and more of my light emerges, until, eventually, I become invisible, untouchable, and One for the Ages.