03/01/2026
“Being sick while being alone with your thoughts can open you up to some truly dark places within yourself. But, each one of those dark areas carries with it, a soulful liberation of truth…
For most of my life, part of my relationship with money has made me feel suicidal. My interpretation of it, as well as my ability to get it, has challenged my self-worth remarkably on numerous occasions. Now, I’ve written more than 120 articles on money mindset, manifestation….I created a podcast around money…I’ve publicly appeared to talk about the spiritual truths about money….Yet, it always at some point made me questione my will to live…Why?
Because, in addition to every wonderful thing above, it also has riddled me with guilt, judgment, and shame. It has led me to feel crippling hopelessness…Lastly, it’s led me to abandon myself on numerous occasions and move into powerfully destructive behaviors…It wasn’t until yesterday that I realized the truth that would not only save my life, but rather allow me to never question my will to live because of money….
Before I go any further, let me clarify: A job is not the answer, more money is not the answer, working harder is not the answer, and as a matter of truth, nothing outside of my spiritual and emotional makeup was the answer…
You see, I had everything I wanted growing up. I often look back with immense gratitude for the childhood I had. But the truth is, My well being was always reliant on a Source outside of me….As long as I was living a normal life, everything was fine…But as soon as my entrepreneurial spirit emerged is when I began to have real problems….
I was often ridiculed for needing help and shamed into believing I wasn’t doing enough to succeed by crowds of people. This was not only emotionally devastating, but it destroyed any self-belief and self-confidence I had. You can imagine the pain of having to approach someone who looks at you (psychically) with the energy of a failure, beggar, slacker, clueless, low-life, inadequate etc…. But ultimately, you’re just misunderstood!
I would often cry myself to sleep because of this pain. Constantly asking, “Why live through this if nobody understands…Why even deal with it?” Many nights, I fought for my life until I was too tired and fell asleep…And then it hit me….In the midst of one of the darkest, emotional, tumultuous episodes ever around money…
How could I be Financially Independent, if I was completely subconsciously programmed and conditioned to be FINANCIALLY DEPENDENT?! Over the years I have mastered how the subconscious mind works through years of study and implementation. And I knew without a shadow of any doubt in that moment…No matter what I tried, I WAS ALWAYS GOING TO NEED EXTERNAL HELP!!! Any action outside of this would be blocked immediately and show up in the form of failed attempts and unfulfilled actions. All, Because my subconscious programming was “FINANCIALLY DEPENDENT.” And I was blind to it until now…44 years and I finally understand why I had to ask for help so many times when it came to money…I finally understand why I had to live through so much rejection, guilt, shame, judgement and pain around money…And now….now I can make the shift I’ve wanted my entire life…
There’s a very important reason I shared this story. I am an advocate for su***de awareness. I have been for over a year now…And when I read the story of all the men and women who have taken their lives because of that same guilt, shame, and judgment they received around money problems, it saddens me…I ask you kindly…If you have kids, adult kids, friends, relatives, or family members in this position…Please be compassionate. They could be doing everything they can, but are mentally and emotionally blocked from making a breakthrough…Do they deserve to die because of that? No, like all of us in different areas….They only Need help, not judgment!!”
-Rev. Shaun Robert Grant❤️
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