10/06/2020
My Statement on Yogi Bhajan and Kundalini Yoga
My History with Yogi Bhajan
I started doing Kundalini Yoga and moved into the ten member Baltimore ashram, and met Yogi Bhajan in 1975. I travelled with the ashram to a Yogi Bhajan birthday party at the Brooklyn Botanical Garden and got my spiritual name, Kartar Singh, from him. My ashram job became managing the Golden Temple Health Food store and I did it for nearly 15 years.
Yogi Bhajan died in 2004. Between 1975 and 2004 I took maybe 20-25 classes where he personally taught, was at hundreds of days of White Ta***ic Yoga that he personally led, and hundreds more that he led by video, helped to host him twice for one-night meditation classes in Baltimore, several times in Rehoboth Beach, Delaware, and watched, particularly in the last 8-10 years’, dozens of his classes on video. I wrote him perhaps 10 letters when I needed help, and he answered each one. I probably had about 8-10 in person discussions with him. For me, all of the personal interactions were elevating, freeing, inspiring, and quite loving. I’ve said to several people over the years that he was the most loving person I’d encountered on the planet.
Yogi Bhajan and Sexual Abuse
Starting about 15-20 years ago I heard stories about Yogi Bhajan having s*x with 2 people. In my mind I felt that he was “above s*x”, and that he had full mastery with himself so these must surely have been for some “higher” reason. I knew of the lawsuits by Premka and Kate Felt; I purposely didn’t read the documents on the web, thinking that they were slander. I heard that Kate Felt had described her encounter as being r**e. Kate’s sister was Guru Amrit Kaur, the Secretary General. I knew and immensely respected Guru Amrit. I couldn’t fathom misconduct.
About 10 years ago, when Yogi Bhajan had been dead for 5 years, I remember standing in my home and telling my wife that I’d been depressed for the previous few days because I could no longer deny that Yogi Bhajan was having s*x with people. I think I believed at that time that he had a kind of harem with at least some of the secretaries and must have been having frequent s*x.
Over these years a few people asked me about rumors that Yogi Bhajan had had s*x with some people. I gave them straight answers with what I knew.
About 8 years ago I decided to withdraw from international community leadership and just focus on teaching and participating with KRI, the research and licensing body of Kundalini Yoga.
Now I have read the Olive Branch Report, heard numerous reports of molestation, s*xual and power abuse of often much younger women, and men too, and read Pamela Sahara Dyson’s book White Bird in a Golden Cage twice. The detailed allegations reveal a serial s*xual predator, a person increasingly obsessed with power, s*x, and predation, a person who repeatedly used his spiritual “power” to bully people into doing things, often by telling extraordinary stories that were false, and a person who consciously created an atmosphere of spying and snitching among those closest to him. It served to keep all the s*x and abuse secret and everybody reporting on everybody. His cultivation of an aura of absolute spiritual superiority lead us to revere him and disbelieve and forcefully shun anyone who came forward to challenge him or this environment. It might not seem believable, but we gave away our power. Basically, we deeply, deeply loved him and we were also afraid of him.
It is sometimes tempting to say “I was a direct student of Yogi Bhajan” as a kind of “badge of honor”. Many students so revere the teachers who say this that they cannot fathom how we could have given away the power we did. That is the same shortsightedness that we had with Yogi Bhajan. It’s time now for all of us to look for all parts of a person and situation—hidden and apparent.
Abuse at Miri Piri Academy
For the last 20 years the community has had a boarding school in India. Dozens of young people have now come forward to talk of being abused and beaten at the hands of other students, or bullied by them or by the staff. I would guess I was aware of 15% of what has now been reported. My son went to school there for 8 years, going at age 8 and graduating there from high school. Through him we heard some stories; he now tells us that there was much he didn’t tell us because he anticipated we wouldn’t have supported him. He’s correct. I gave much license to Yogi Bhajan thinking he knew of all the abuse and he “must have known” there was a “higher” way to understand this. We trusted, I trusted, and deferred to him--- to that extent. Some have characterized this as revering and believing Yogi Bhajan over our own children. They are correct.
Standing where I do today I would say that the organization I had been so proud of now shows me many of the classical traits of a cult. We adulated and glorified a teacher, many people trusted a spiritual teacher over their own internal guidance, we went along with occasionally seeing someone berated in a demeaning way. We went along with shunning people who chose to leave the path as “weak”. There was a “party line” if you want to say it that way. I learned to take on faith many yogic things Yogi Bhajan said.
Moving Forward:
There are many changes that need to be made. Here are some of them:
KRI, the certifying body of Kundalini Yoga, is presently controlled through oversight by the Siri Singh Sahib Corp (SSSC), the body of about 15 people that is in charge of all the for-profit and non-profit entities including KRI, 3HO, IKYTA, Sikh Dharma, Yogi Tea, Akal Security, and the school in India. The SSSC is a clearly conservative religious body that has not even been willing to support Sikh gay marriage yet. KRI needs to get out from under the oversight of the SSSC. It’s time for clear separation between Kundalini Yoga and any religion.
The manuals for Level One and Two Kundalini Yoga Teacher Training need to be redone removing Yogi Bhajan’s name, his moral pronouncements, his DVD classes, and direct quotations. Any assertion of yogic fact should be removed from the manuals unless it is also supported by yogic information from other sources. The manuals currently coordinate closely with concepts from the Sikh path. Kundalini Yoga belongs to all spiritual traditions and the manuals need to reflect that.
Each person in a leadership position with KRI or any of the other Kundalini Yoga teaching or community organizations needs to make a full statement like this one—what they knew, when they knew it, what, if anything, they did about it, where they are now, and why they should be trusted to undo the culture that brought them to positions of authority.
The community must offer and pay for healing for any victims and cultivate a consciousness with a thorough understanding of trauma as a highest priority. Training in helping with trauma should be widely offered to Kundalini Yoga teachers, not only for these victims, but hundreds of thousands of others who have suffered trauma at the hands of 10,000 years of earthly conditioning.
The Kundalini Yoga organizations need to consciously articulate a new culture of teaching where everyone is learning from each other, a Piscean model of revering a teacher more than any other person is regarded as something to learn from, not to repeat. It is time to honor the capacity and gifts of each person, and also to be aware that we all have shadow sides and challenges.
In Conclusion:
Some are denying, even vehemently, that the allegations could be true. In their eyes, Yogi Bhajan is a kind of saint. Others are breaking all ties with Kundalini Yoga and Sikh Dharma because these things came to us through Yogi Bhajan. I’m doing neither. All the good things that came to me through Yogi Bhajan have not evaporated, nor are they now invalid.
It’s also true that I was blind—had multiple blind spots. Whether those get corrected is my responsibility. Without any blinders, Yogi Bhajan, if caught and convicted while alive, would have served time in a federal penitentiary.
I choose to use his failings and the cultish community culture I lived in to get better. I choose to be a lighthouse, a spiritual point of light, so that those around me might not crash on the shore of human frailty; not going out into the water to save others, just working each day to shine my own light for my own benefit; because I believe that the highest thing that each of us can do is to cultivate our own light and that it will naturally shine for others.
I’m looking forward to offering Kundalini Yoga, creating new courses, new ways of teaching, and new ways of understanding the scientific foundation of Yoga. I look forward to growing in tandem with others, helping to create a community of integrity, warmth, and healing for any person. If there was ever a time for that, it is now.