08/19/2026
Yesterday, Luna crossed the rainbow bridge 🌈
…and I don’t really know what to do with myself.
For almost 12 years, my world revolved around this giant, complicated, hilarious, anxious, stubborn, extraordinary special needs girl.
Meds three times a day. Cancer. Deafness. Anxiety. Being home in time to let her out. Planning trips around the tiny circle of humans she trusted.
And Luna’s circle of trust was TINY 💯
But I was always in it.
She needed me. A lot.
And the truth is, I needed her too 💗
Our vet gave her the most peaceful, compassionate goodbye I could have hoped for. She knew I was there. She knew she was safe.
And now she’s free.
Free from pain.
Free from cancer.
Free from anxiety.
Free from a body that was so tired.
I’d like to believe she’s somewhere running around with all of her besties who got there before her, hearing everything again, while I’m an absolute wreck down here 🐾
And suddenly, for the first time in almost 12 years, I’m free too….
No rushing home. No medication alarms. No arranging my life around what she needed.
I can travel. I can stay out. I can go.
And wow, do I have some feelings about that.
Because right now, I would give anything to have her here, pain free, to rush home to.
I’m 50. My divorce will be final in a few weeks. I’ve raised five kids. I’m now a true empty nester.
Last night, for the first time, it was just me.
This isn’t what I imagined my life would look like at 50.
But I also know how unbelievably lucky I am for all the love that got me here.
Especially hers 💗
Luna changed my life.
She made me laugh. She drove me crazy. She got me through some of the hardest days of my life.
And she trusted me with her whole life.
Yesterday, I had to be worthy of that trust one last time.
So I let her go 🌈
Thank you for choosing me, Luna.
Thank you for needing me.
Thank you for loving me.
Thank you for changing me.
Go run. Go play. Go find your friends.
I’ll figure out this next chapter.
I just need a minute first.
I love you forever 💗🐾🌙
St. Louis Veterinary Center
The Watering Bowl