09/08/2025
Thought of the day: No, you AREN'T getting "worse," your ears are able to hear more now.
This idea is not new. I first experienced it when taking serious flute lessons. The flutist and Pedagogue Trevor Wye talks about this in the first volume of his Practice Book for the Flute. He says that once you start consistently practicing long tones, you will, for a short time, feel like you are making solid progress. Then, you will feel like you sound horrible, even though you are spending more time working on your tone.
The thing is, you aren't actually getting worse. What is happening is that through intentional, conscientious practice, you are starting to be able to hear more in your sound that you couldn't hear before. The depth of your understanding is increasing, your "palate" is maturing.
This is not a bad thing. This is the type of thing that will allow you to actually grow. Now that you can hear with more depth, you can adjust your work to include the new things that you are hearing.
Note, that this is not unique to tonal practice. It also includes finger technique as well. If you are practicing your scales consistently (or a particularly technical part of a piece of music), and attempting to increase your speed, you may, for a time, feel like you are able to go quite fast with what you consider even fingers. After a few days of playing your scales at that tempo, and if you are practicing conscientiously, and with intention, you will notice that your fingers feel LESS even than they did before. Just like the tonal example above, this is because your brain is able to notice the un-evenness more easily now that it has gotten used to the faster speeds.
Also, like the tonal example above, this is a good thing. You CANNOT fix problems in your playing if you don't know, or can't feel or hear, what you need to work on. So, ALWAYS practice with intention. Always pay close attention, especially when working on developing tone and technique, to as much of your playing as you are currently able to. Be consistent in your work so you can deepen the understanding of what you are ACTUALLY doing. Then, work to address the "new" challenges you face.
Happy Practicing.