03/13/2026
For a long time, I believed there must be a “true self” somewhere inside me.
Something solid.
Something stable.
Something I just had to discover.
But the more I spent time in meditation, the more something surprising started to happen.
Instead of finding a fixed self…
I started noticing how everything was constantly changing.
A thought would appear, stay for a moment, and then disappear.
An emotion would rise, feel overwhelming for a while… and then quietly fade.
Even the stories I told about who I am kept shifting over time.
At some point, I had a simple but powerful realization:
What I call “me” is not a solid thing.
It’s more like a stream of experiences moving through time.
The deeper I went into meditation, the clearer this became.
You start seeing how the mind constantly produces thoughts, feelings, identities
and how each of them appears and disappears on its own.
Nothing stays for very long.
And strangely, this realization didn’t feel scary.
It felt freeing.
Because if everything is changing, then I am not trapped inside a fixed version of myself.
Not my past.
Not my mistakes.
Not even the identity I thought I had to protect.
Life is moving.
The mind is moving.
Everything is unfolding moment by moment.
And when you begin to see that directly,
you start holding life a little more lightly.
audio credit: slavoj žižek
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