05/16/2024
Vulnerable post:
There’s those people that everyone loves- they fill the room, they make friends everywhere they go… that’s not me haha.
I went to the DMV and the lady had a beautiful picture- I complimented it and she flat out ignored me. Meanwhile few minutes later the chick at the counter next to me mentioned something about her daughter- full blown convo. Like WTF
I love my husband and my kids and they are absolutely enough for me, but that doesn’t negate the fact that no one calls me, no brunch with the girls, no bunco or game nights or double triple dates. I long to have these connections- ones robust with joy and laughter and real connection and love.
I don’t know why it bugs me, but it does. Simultaneously I’m content and perfectly happy if nothing were to change. This is why I’m changing paths now, and going to learn how to build a tribe. This will require that I do things, chase what I love which is exciting. I’m grateful my husband is right here by my side to go through this with me and together.
It feels good to have a full cup from the love I have for my family, and wanting to create memories with beautiful souls. Thats all 🖤