05/29/2026
Lol this made me laugh.
I'm a pickle! But hopefully, not too sour. I am told often ours are just right...a little tart, a little salty, super smooth, and just the right amount of spice. I hope that's ME. 🤣
Speaking of pickles, thanks for selling me out of them on Wednesday! Joe just told me....
I got discharged late last night. I am home. A list of meds, expensive ones, already filled.
They have no full understanding of what caused it, but the only official diagnosis is sepsis. Probably an atypical lung infection, that didn't present like that. I woke up freezing last Friday, covered in sweat, and within half an hour was clattering so bad that no part of my body could stay still, stromg enough it was seen by a stranger in kine where I was. When the clattering was done, I had 103 fever, and even with fever reducing meds, I rose to 104.5.
They never could rule out Meningitis because the three attempts at Lumbar Puncture, including the one with Interventional Radiology, were unsuccessful due to the titanium, bone, and "vast amount" of scar tissue from my spinal cord decompression, laminectomy and multi level fusion almost 5 years ago, that didn't heal properly.
There were soooo many tests done. Some showed nothing. Some started to show things, that were likely symptoms of the progression of the sepsis and things it was causing. Not the actual things causing the sepsis. Some will go away. Some may not.
There was also a lot of testing done that showed incidental findings of things unrelated to the sepsis or its side effects, that will need follow up. Things that can't just be ignored. Things that need specialists.
I don't have health insurance. My husband's employer refused to add me under special enrollment at the beginning of the year when I lost my other coverage even though they had said we would be able to. It was not ok, should never have happened, but it is what it is, so still I wait until October 1st for Open Enrollment. And I'm pretty sure these things should not wait for 4 more months. So, we will evaluate what options we have from here.
I did also fall in the hospital (which should never have happened), so have more pain than when I went in. So I will be recovering from that, and may need follow up.
So, thank you for those that have helped with meals and donations. Losing a week or more of work around here is detrimental. (It rounds out to more, since both farming and food work are like an assembly line, everything always in motion, and when actual work stops for a week, it has effects for weeks...) Your small farmers work hard to keep food on the table for both your family AND theirs. Add to that the actual work of farming, preparing, loading, hauling, setting up....and then being dependent on weather so much of the time, both for the farming AND markets, it's a constant balls in the air juggle to keep everything flowing smoothly. Add in an unexpected sickness or injury in the family...and it can be catastrophic.
So, genuinely, thank you. Sales, orders, showing up to market, sharing our page, tagging us, signing up for classes...it all helps us stay afloat when we are very struggling to.
Bringing meals, sending donations, buying more at market than we know your family normally would, placing orders for things we know you didn't necessarily need, sharing or tagging us on posts for other people to order from, etc. I find it hard to put into words how much it means. My husband and I don't have family to help. We don't have moms to help with the kids. Or aunts to bring a meal. Dads to tell us it will all work out. Siblings to pitch in. We don't have generational wealth to know it will all be fine. My husband's two sets of grandparents had small family gardens, but other than that, we are first generation farmers. I grew up in apartments. We are the only ones from our parents and siblings to buy a house, and did it alone. We work dang hard for everything we've built, and work hard to teach our kids that life means you get up and go after what you want. Yes, we hope to leave them a better start than we were given. But more than anything, we hope to teach them that despite our bad days...and there will be bad days (years?)...we can choose to get up again and keep going.
But, also, that it's ok to accept help from your village. Even if it is the village you helped to create. Not all of us are born with one.
Thanks to those who are here.