10/18/2021
Pictured here is a whole person. A month ago, I culminated into a jaded, disgruntled second-year resident annoyed at systems larger than me and completely . Starting Developing Doc before residency, it never occurred to me what a full-time job residency would be. Call me silly, but no one truly imagines one singular thing can consume all one's time and energy - not me, a person who was doing everything to combat burnout.
For those who don’t know me, I live, breathe and practice daily self-growth and -discovery. I attend therapy twice a week with a psychoanalyst, spend many of my conversations with loved ones and in my head teasing out what happened and how I can grow. I’ve made many mistakes in the past few years, lost friendships, and even made tough decisions to stop caring about things I once cared about too much.
My issue turned out to be I never stopped or learned how to give myself a proper break. So, I broke! The symptoms were classic, and I longed to be somewhere else, and part of me wanted to quit more and be careless.
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