09/27/2020
I couldnât reach the toy.â
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I reached out my hands but they couldnât make it,â
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I donât know how to crawl just yet.â
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So I looked around for you and cried, and there you came.â
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I heard your voice say âYou want that toyâ as you moved it back to me, and I rested in the truth that you come when I call.â
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Mama, â
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I know you get tired of my cries. It feels like cry for everything right now.â
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I donât know how to say âI need the toyâ or most importantly âI need youâ so I cry instead.â
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Mama,â
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Itâs not a reflection of how I feel about you.â
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I love you, thatâs why I cry for you.â
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I need you, thatâs why I cry for you.â
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I know you canât always get to me right away, thatâs ok.â
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I love hearing your voice saying âI hear you, Iâll be there soonâ as I wait for you.â
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Mama, â
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I canât wait for the day I can tell you how I feel.â
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How in your arms I feel safe.â
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How you are my fortress, my rock.â
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How I find comfort in your voice, your body, and your presence.â
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But right now I canât,â
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So when I need you I cry.â
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Mama, â
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I see your tears too.â
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I know it can be hard.â
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In my short life weâve already been through so much together, and I know we will get through this too.â
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I know you donât always feel like you are doing good, but mama you are more than just good, you are mine. â
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Mama,â
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I love you.â
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So tonight if I cry, know I donât expect you to get it right, right away.â
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I know you are trying to learn me, just as Iâm trying to learn this world around me.â
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Mama, we will get through this.â
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One day at a time,â
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One minute at a time,â
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One cry at a time.â
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