Go Forward Fitness

Only you can let it in ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

been staring at the sky a lot lately 🌅

Ooooooooo I am EXCITED about this one 🙂‍↕️

PS: Looking back on these photos and my rugby journey was so fun. Thank you to everyone who’s been a part of it 🫶

I have heard the people call this the Saturn return. These are the things I’ve committed to for myself as I navigate many major changes my life that feel scary & vulnerable.

To take ownership of my health & snuggle with my demons, these are my non-negotiables. I’ve been keeping a list of my “mood boosters” which are things I notice help uplift me and things to avoid that I notice lead to headaches or tummy aches 🥲

The great news is that I think my exposure therapy is working, I’ve been able to eat a lot more cheese without problems 🥰🥰🥰

You guys got any ideas for me?? Besides a ceramics class 😂

You guys got any ideas for me? Besides a ceramics class 😂😂😂

My mom wants it to be known that it’s not her quote, credit to Jon Kabat-Zinn 🫶

It is very true that rugby is more fun when you’re fit but conditioning doesn’t have to be running line to line & it doesn’t have to be boring! I absolutely LOVE playing touch in the park. Last year when I had my whoop my score was way higher for an evening of touch than it was at wer practices! You don’t have to dread conditioning :)

A lot of changes are happening in my life right now. Some moments I feel like I don’t know which way is up. Just when I think I’m on the brink of a breakthrough, I feel like I’ve been dragged back down. I’m really proud of my rugby journey, but there’s also a deeper rooted shame that lingers for not accomplishing dreams & goals that I wanted for myself. It’s like 1 foot wants to stay in the door so badly because this stubborn part of me doesn’t want to accept that the rest of me is ready to move on. And the part of me that is holding on felt that accomplishing that goal meant I would finally feel good enough. But the truth is that no matter how many accolades I got or goals I accomplished, I’d always find a way to discredit or belittle them. So this little guy finds a way to be dissatisfied no matter what I give him. Holding onto my unmet goal stopped me from wanting to dream big again.

Well I finally see you, guy. & I understand that I was searching for a feeling that I thought this goal could bring me. I was aiming from a place of feeling not good enough rather than a place of curiosity & joy. It hurts to not reach your goals but it hurts even more to live without dreams.

Not the kind of dreams that you hope will make you feel like enough but dreaming from a place of joy and excitement knowing you are already enough exactly as you are. These are the dreams I hope to find in this next chapter.

Nothing like some time in nature and with family to help guide me there :)

You voted and we made it happen!! Free 4 week off season program for women’s+ rugby players! Come & get it :))

is such an awesome human and incredible coach and I’m super excited that we’ve gotten to work together for this collab!! The power of knee trauma & the comeback really brings people together 🫶