01/03/2023
2022 knocked me on my ass in so many ways.😮💨
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i can’t quite put into words how I feel as I’m looking back on the last year. i am flooded with so much emotion, both good and bad, both bitter and sweet. there were days I literally didn’t think I’d make it to 2023. there is absolutely nothing more scary and isolating than when you’re feeling so sick and no one can help you. when you can’t find the answers you need. when you have two children to take care of despite how you feel. i will never again take for granted the simple act of eating food without pain. the simple act of walking on my own two feet. the simple act of being able to lift my child when she wants to be lifted. my body has been through so much, but I am so grateful for its endless strength and it’s patience.🙏🏻
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yes, I am frustrated it took almost 20 years to identify my lyme and exhausting list of co-infections and to find the right treatment, and I am angry that our beautiful new mold-infested home almost killed me. with that said, i feel endlessly grateful to have a roof over my head as we rebuild ours 🏠, and the resources and support to be able to heal and rebuild myself from the inside out…and I am.❤️ I feel more alive and hopeful than I have in so long.
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I ended the year with most of my favorite people in NY, I have a new beautiful & healthy niece, and I hiked in the mountains of CA. 🙏🏻
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and I feel the need to also say…if you too are suffering from “invisible illness” don’t give up on finding answers. you know your body best and no, you’re not f*cking crazy. no, it’s not in your head. you’re also not alone. there is light at the end of the tunnel. healing is possible…and you deserve it. please msg me if you are a lyme and/or mold warrior so we can stick together. 💌