02/11/2013
I am working through this post, still trying to revise and understand better, but here goes.
I read a chapter from Blake Mycoskie's book Start Something That Matters today with my students. Blake is the founder of TOMS shoes. We read a selection about fear and as we were discussing it, we came to realize that we fear being our best selves because it is unknown. I am very familiar with who I am now, as I've chosen to be who and how I am. It's my normal. While I don't like all of who I am, maybe I am comfortable.
I am more attuned to the tough parts of myself. I am more familiar with my anger than my patience. Conflict over calm. Ego and selfishness over humility and selflessness. I know how low I can go, but have yet to see how high I can fly. So the low is familiar and more normal than the me I want to be.
Who I want to be is a person I've never seen, so it is unfamiliar and scary. I fear the unknown and prefer the known. Me now is known. Me at my best is unknown.
What I have to do is slowly familiarize myself with me at my best and make it my new normal. Again, a work in progress, but I had to start spelling it out for myself.
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