01/02/2022
The last few days have been… deeply emotional for me. Letting go of something, even when you know it’s the right thing to do, is painful. To cope I’ve begun journaling again. I used to journal a lot as a kid and have gone through phases since, until someone close to me read one of my journals and violated my trust. I didn’t realize until recently that I had stopped journaling all together after that. Subconsciously for fear that my private thoughts would again become not private.But in time of deep processing I always at one point or another turn to good old pen and paper (sorry trees)🌳
Todays prompt asked me to write a letter to myself apologizing for a “mistake” I had made in 2021. So I wrote my letter and to be expected it actually was very therapeutic. Being brutally, emotionally honest with yourself is where you rebuild from. Where you heal and grow from. But after I finished the first letter I realized something.. all of these “mistakes” brought me literally SO MANY positive things too: experiences, friendships, knowledge, laughter, pleasure, joy, healing, connection, divinity, growth, strength. And like the butterfly effect 🦋 doing one thing different would have changed the course of who knows what and some of this amazingly beautiful and healing experiences may have never happened. It’s all divinely intertwined which is just so interesting to me.
As for the new year. Im resilient and j always have been. I know it will be full of love, growth, and abundance (and maybe some mistakes too) but the good is still far out weighing the bad in my book. 💗 xx Alicia