Neurospicy-Explained

I was nerfed because I wanted to be the first Māori Astronaut in space. But I couldn't math my way out of any detention and I get bad motion sickness. But my God do I LOVE space stuff. It's unfair.
Crying for hours about math homework with undiagnosed dyscalculia. Hours n hours of private tutor with this old lady in her smelly house that used to make me feel ick. The guilt. The Shame. My brain refuses to math now, but when it does, I do get surprised by my addition skills though. At least I can count coins, I got that. Oh and can do 9x tables on my hand. Have a solid idea of m-theory too. But here we are.

I've been absent for most of the summer and I feel horrible about it...those who I know personally will have already known BUT

AFTER 10+ years of infertility, tests, treatments, loss and finally residing myself to let it go and stop trying...

Of course....nature laughs in our faces, very happily although very unexpected.....WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!

My husband and our other kiddos (my step kids) are all VERY EXCITED

That being said, after years and years agonizing over medication decisions relating to my body and baby, I have opted to go med free during my pregnancy. It has absolutely been THE HARDEST part of these past weeks but I'm still glad for the decision I've made. From that decision I have needed to make the decision to put my mental efforts where I truly can afford to in my life and unfortunately that means I'll be letting this page go for now.

You've all been a wonderful support in my mission here and I appreciate each one of you!!!!

(Pic for attention....and cause I love sharing it 😁 )

Holyyy cannoli batman! My family has been suffering some horrible pain and illnesses and it has taken EVERY THING outta me along with a whole metric ton of life changes all at the same time, one of those being that I am not able to get my ADHD meds at the moment and it's been about a month now.... Yay. So much fun trying to keep myself regulated recently (major sarcasm) anywho things seem to be cooling down around her *knock on wood fingers crossed and whatever else!* And I will pick back up where we left off!

Words can't express my love-hate relationship for so much chaos and change in my personal life but I'm making sure to get myself outside once a day (usually a walk with my lil man to the gas station for caffeine 🫣🤷🏼‍♀️) which also checks off my "move your body" part of keeping my mental health a priority, I make sure to shut off all TV's/playstation/tablets and turn on some music, at least a song or two, and BE SILLY with or without my kids around! I try to make sure I get enough water by having water bottles readily cold in the fridge easy to grab. Still doesn't always work but it's an improvement for sure.

I am not at my best but I'm certainly not at my worst either and that is also an improvement! Drop a comment with what are small ways you prioritize your mental well being in order to stay better regulated when you are going through a major stress time?

🤗 Stay "weird "

I shared this on my personal profile page and realized I'd really like all my neurospicy comrades to put in their two cents here!

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I go out of my way to not get talked to on my lunch break bc as much as I love a good social hour....my lunch hour is not that....it's my time to decompress, unmask, and regulate myself...

I mean I SERIOUSLY go out of my way to be alone whether I sneak off into the chapel garden or find a corner with a chair on a random floor....

And yet...

Still people go out of THEIR way to try and have convos with me and honestly it really makes THEM seem like the autistic one 🤷🏼‍♀️

Like ....you see someone alone in a corner with headphones in and eating peacefully by themselves and your first thought is "I should insist on talking to them"

Um....why??

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I *DO* understand when this happens from co-workers that I am friends/friendly with already..I still don't enjoy it but I understand it at least. The problem is that it's typically not someone I've ever met before.