09/21/2020
Warning: Vulnerable Reflection Ahead!
Much of the reading I've done so far in expanding my knowledge on trauma has been, admittedly, white-washed. As with so many things "white," which remain invisible to me as a white person, I didn't realize it until too recently. Even though I've done a lot of work on anti-racism, some things that are right in front of me remain unquestioned because of my position. With this admission, I'm working with , a staunch advocate for anti-racism in trauma work, to uncover how matters of race are inextricable from matters of trauma and how to make that a reality in my mind/research.
Reading Alvarez (2020) definitely helped to open my eyes to exactly how race is intertwined with trauma, yet when I go to incorporate this conversation into my blog posts and even IG posts, I feel like a piece is missing. I read a post the other day that said something about the difference between being willing to share privilege and being willing to give up privilege. I think that's what I'm grappling with. If our white-washed ideas about how to identify, treat, and teach students who've experienced trauma are not the answer (and they've been my go-to for this independent study on trauma), then what is the answer? Also, as a white person in a predominantly white state working with a majority of white students, how does this all apply to me, my research, and my teaching?
Alvarez goes on to explain that a lot of the response to trauma for children of color has been reactive in nature. That is, the trauma happens, then we respond. A huge paradigm shift and a call to action to dismantle hegemonic white-dominant power structures, is that the solution to rampant and disproportionate rates of trauma for children of color is to fix the problems that keep many of them subjugated. Alvarez also states that ongoing racism puts even high SES children of color at a higher risk of experiencing trauma than their white peers.
There is so much to unpack here. Even so, in order for my work to help white teachers see their role in mitigating trauma in their students, this work needs to be done.