The Mirror Goddess

It will soon be time for videos. I’m not sure what this aspect of self will bring forward, however I’m immensely curious! 👀

Ah yes … for sure!!

Let’s be responsible for the upgrades ☺️❣️🌺🌹🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶

I’m about a week into my “criticism fast”

Wow, it’s fascinating to observe myself/my thoughts, my feelings through this lense

Today I realized when I feel shame I have first criticized myself 🤔 ie. I’m ashamed of the condition of my home, therefore I’m first criticizing myself for the way I’ve been keeping house

What if I simply let it be? No need to be ashamed, I can do something about it if it bothers me that much 🤷‍♀️

Simple perhaps, but profound in the moment

Thank you Donna Davis

It's time for me to buy this book and share a link for others ...

I swear I'm hearing the name on the daily now from different sources

Strange name, strong concepts

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25 years ago this week my mother, 43 at the time, was in the hospital after still-birthing a daughter and the day after suffering a massive stroke and heart attack from clots in her blood.

I with her physically when it happened. I was the one in the room with her. We had, intuitively and without speaking of why, prepared for this immediate change to everything in the days prior when she showed me how she managed the budget and we pulled together all the kid’s birth information - which allowed me quickly obtain birth certificates for the several born at home (the youngest 8 children)

I was with her physically only because of my gifts of seeing. Of lucid dreaming.

A week before I had foreseen that we were going to lose the baby in a dream, and that if I wasn’t there we would lose mom too. Because of my great work ethic I had several weeks of vacation and sick time saved up, and a supportive boss who told me to go to her when I shared my dream in tears the next morning. That was the longest Greyhound bus ride of my life, from Phoenix AZ to Lake Havasu.

When i got there, my sister Crystal was completely exhausted from caring for mom and my 14 months old brother for weeks. Mom has tried so hard to hide how awful she was feeling. She must have been so scared.

I was 21. Married, homeowner, solid career path started … but a child. Everything changed.

This past few nights I’ve been wondering why my dreams have been what they have this week.

Now I know.

It all came flooding back tonight; as my body remembers the anniversary even though it took me a couple days to put it together.

Grief is a fascinating and important part of the human experience. Stuffing it is so easy to do, because it can be so overwhelming. Yet I know it’s one of the unhealthiest things to do - stuff grief.

You probably have a story too, of grief, of gifts that are surprisingly challenging but you’re grateful for anyway, of moments you’ll never be able to fully forget that completely changed the trajectory of your life, perceptions and reality.

It’s not selfish to put yourself first. My mother taught me that by putting everyone else first to her own extreme detriment. I wish she had put herself first over financial worries, over paradigms, over everything, but she didn’t. She couldn’t. Her patterns were what they were and one day it was too late to choose to change things … things changed out of momentum.

Today, I grieve my mother. Yes; that she’s no longer with us but mainly the day she could no longer guide me in life, could no longer hold me when I cried, could no longer be the strong one. That day, roles shifted and we - the children - became her caretaker. My sister Crystal became the family angel. My siblings are stronger than about anyone I’ve ever met, with kinder hearts and more understanding views than most because they learned to read an alphabet board to communicate with their mother. They didn’t have the same version of Mom I did, but they got her soul. Her fiery committed spirit and we all learned far more from and through her than she ever thought she might teach us with the life she planned before that day.

She taught me to sing, dance, play piano, read, do math, she taught me science, daring, sewing, cooking, childcare, brought me network marketing and personal development, planted the seeds for hypnosis, energy healing and so many other things. In such a short life.

And as tonight I grieve again, I am so grateful for the mother who raised me. 💔❤️‍🩹🙏

Last night I was having a dream within a dream … then woke from that dream … then both dreams …. it took me a bit go get my bearings in this physical reality

The experience still has me a bit floored

This gift of lucid dreamscapes can be so intense sometimes, it requires grounding and meditation just to make sure I’m in one dimensional reality at time

To some, this will be jibberish and GOD BLESS YOU 🙏☮️💝 Truly … it was to me too at one point. Slmplifying at this level is complicated 🤣😂🤣 and the phrasing itself is comical and true.

To others, it’s a very real aspect of reality … that is multiple realities … at once 😳 Yes … Wow …. I’m here for it and … Holy Cow 🐄

My Generator friends say “Bubble Up” Protect yourself 😂🤣😂 Honestly I laugh inside at that … My auric type is Ether … it doesn’t bubble it becomes an entire space and interprets 🤔 🎵 thankfully with a Teflon effect because otherwise we would simply become our environment completely ❣️.What a wild, deep, realistically lucid and íntimate experience I get to have through dreams, it seems 💤

January 2024 has been one of the longest and strangest months in memory

* Multiple business opportunities shown, none fit: at least not yet
* Multiple new “dating potentials” but not thrilled with the basic and common approach style that simplified to “hi, nice to meet you. You’re pretty. Wanna get drunk and have sex?” 😂🤣😂. No. Not sure Kansas is much different than how I left it many years ago.
* Completed more minutes of planks than I’ve probably done my whole life - and still a little short of the goal & happy I did it anyway
* Not sure exactly what happened with some of my “friendships” but others have rooted in deeper. Funny how easy it can be to justify our position despite what we say we believe or follow. Me included.
* Rediscovered my own strength and confidence, and ability to shift and en-joy simplicity
* Realized my own definition of greatness doesn’t fit the average paradigm
* Had several hours and even a couple days “in the dumps” followed by lucid dreams guiding me in a different direction, waking with a ridiculously high vibe
* Invited as a guest on multiple podcasts, that was fun
* Introduced to some truly inspiring people
* Accepted to a coaching program next month with a couple of online leaders I’ve been watching for years, for free. What’s great about this is I’ve known since the first time I saw this influencer online that one day I’d be learning from him. That time is now.
* Felt more judged and earned less money than I can remember for many, many years … but the things released and promising future is also greater than I had imagined now and may not have happened any other way
* Spent most of the month indoors due to cold ourdoors, but rarely felt isolated
* Pulled way back on social media and who has access to me
* Took my power back in so many ways
* Received incredible support from a couple people who seem to always have my back
* Experienced the reflector self and not-self themes of surprise and disappointment in some obvious ways
* Read The Go Giver
* Read The Four Agreements
* played hours of RPG video games
* Got some great sleep
* Started reading The Gap and The Gain
* Drank a full gallon of water a day for 10 days
* For the first time ever gave myself permission to drop a Live Challenge I no longer resonated with & focus on loving myself and my life privately instead

And wow did I do a lot of thinking, processing, shifting perspective and letting go of the past.

My 2024 came in like a powerful soul-guided freight train.

How about yours? 🤣😂

Seems about accurate 🤔

“ The giver should never remember and the receiver should never forget” ~ A Dear Friend