Reinvent Ur wellness

It has been almost 1 year to the day since I wrote the message in the picture to myself....

I found it while still trying to find the calm in the chaos of unpacked moving boxes and TOO MUCH stuff....

😱When you are "unhealed", "wounded", "healing" "just being you", and your external reality keeps being filled with clutter and "hoarder tendency" it is actually a universal sign that there is an internal void that you are trying to fill..
🔥Unwell internal = Unwell external

So with all my healing and all the work I have done on myself.... how the hell did I end up here? 🥺🤔😅🤔🥺

✨️my own hard dose of reality was that I had not taken the time to process, heal, absorb, or release the insane amount of trauma I experienced; while being the only consistent light of hope for my kids day in and day out, to be their safe space of healing when our whole world literally turn their backs on us during the most blind sided horrible experience of any of our lives....

‼️‼️‼️ NO CHILD SHOULD HAVE TO SUFFER ABUSE OF ANY KIND....especially at the hands of someone they trusted and were suppose to be safe with!

✨️ I told myself. "We healed", "We survived", instead of processing it and truly healing and releasing it; I was ready to "close the door" and "put it behind us"

✨️I jumped into a relationship that none of us were truly prepared for... I was ready to "feel real love" and in the beginning that is truly what I felt... y'all I was so spoiled, with time, attention, affection, and beautiful thoughtful gifts... down to the smallest thing of bringing me a candy bar on his lunch break just because he knew I was having a bad day. We spent so much time focused on taking care of each other needs that our own got filled as well...

🤔wait that sounds beautiful so how did you end up, where you are at....again?

❌️🤦‍♀️❌️ because the hard truth that no one likes to accept in themselves is this...

💔👉wounded humans wound humans.... hurt humans hurt humans....

😮‍💨😔at a core level it is not intentional....most humans don't want to actually hurt other humans.

💔🥺we operate on autopiloted stories that have been engraved in us since we were kids. until we change those stories, the hurt and wounds will always find a way to seep outside and destroy any beautiful garden you try to plant...

😔🥺😶‍🌫️😭😲 I thought your job was to give us hope instead I feel even more hopless....

🫂🫂🤝🫂🫂 I know.. I know it is hard when you have to sit at the bottom of despair, in your dark cave, that feels like I just closed your only escape route....

As I sit here writing this, reflecting, on my internal growth, all the real external items I realeased, and threw away that I was still externally carrying the weight of.... Here is my HOPE for YOU... here is my LIGHT to ease your darkness...💖✨️🖤

Almost 1 year ago I was:
🤦‍♀️drinking daily

🤦‍♀️beng criticized constantly for not doing enough to get a "real job"

🤦‍♀️functioning daily on an over stimulated unregulated nervous system

🤦‍♀️I couldn't stand up for myself or voice my needs without sending my body into a panic attack.

🤦‍♀️feeling physically stuck in depression where no amount of joy could even absorb near me

🤦‍♀️so overwhelmed with the amount of things piling up to do that I just simply couldn't find the energy to tackle the simplest things.

Now today 5/18/2026
💪❤️ I am 166 days sober.
✨️everyday counts.... you have to start at day 1 TO GET TO day 166 and beyond....

💪❤️ I am about to fully open the doors to not 1 but 2 businesses that I have been grinding on behind the scenes and building the foundations for brick by brick...
✨️everybody has to start somewhere and it all starts with a vision of what YOU want to be.

💪❤️ Not only have I reclaimed control over my own nervous system, doing so has created a ripple effect in the healing of two more generations.
✨️ By healing yourself, it allows you the compassion, empathy, and depth to heal your wounded parents that unintentionally f❤️cked YOU up, as well as being the guiding post of healing the future generations to carry on YOUR beautiful legacy of love and light!!!

💪❤️I now have the capacity to voice my needs, thoughts, concerns, fears, and my own short comings without the crippling insecurity of how any, one single person on this planet feels towards me...
✨️that's called OWNING YOURSELF and being UNAPOLGETICALLY exactly who you were meant to be.

💪❤️ ATTITUDE for GRATITUDE has been the one key, secret hidden treasure, that has truly unlocked the door to recieve the limitless amount of abundance that we all get to bare witness to as it flows into my life...
✨️depression, anxiety, FEAR, restlessnss, limiting beliefs, and those autopiloted stories that keep driving your life off a cliff don't have the space to exist within you when you truly harness the POWER OF GRATITUDE!

💪❤️I can now juggle a schedule that includes easily 3x the amount of items to check off those to do lists.
✨️Do I handle it all perfectly and without mistake... Hell no😎
✨️Do I always handle every situation gracefully or in my highest version... Hell no😎
✨️Do I still "fail", fall short, and get stuck in my own loops... Yep all the time 😎

❤️🫂WE ARE HUMAN, IT HAPPENS.... NOBODY IS PERFECT!!! YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH JUST AS YOU ARE!!🫂❤️

✨️Do I get up when I am knocked down!?!... EVERY TIME. 🔥

✨️Do I wake up thanking the universe for another day to be better than I was yesterday!?! EVERY MORNING 🙏🌞

✨️Do I allow myself the space to continue healing, evolving, and releasing old ways that no longer serve me.... I SURE DO, EVEN WHEN THAT LOOKS LIKE BREAKING DOWN AND CRYING IN THE MIDDLE OF A STORE....😭
‼️Healing is deep, hard work so find grace for yourself because healing is messy as f❤️ck!!!

🪄All that to let YOU know that YOU have the power to change your life, even when it looks bleak, dark, unbearable, or impossible...

🧡✨️🧡 The Universe and I are here to help!!!

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🌤If YOU aren't prepared to take a chance on yourself... YET, that is okay too! 🫂❤️ We will get YOU there.. drop "HOLD MY HAND" and when my doors open I'll send you the link to my community where I will sprinkle personalized FREE VIP level healing specifically for YOU..because everybody is worthy of having somebody in their corner!!!

✨️I am shining my light brightly for YOU.
❤️Always remember the Universe and I have got your back!

⚠️⁉️❕️⚠️You know that moment in life where the weight of the world collides with the already crumbling pieces of yourself that you are desperately trying to hold together with what feels like chewed up bubble gum, decades old unstuck duct tape, and quick fix patches that are actually worse and create more damage then if you would have taken the TIME to properly fix it.....

‼️That moment slammed into me in September 2016.
💔As I sat alone crying like I had never cried before breaking like I had never broke before.. My almost three year old daughter peacefully sleeping, undisturbed by the uncontrollable sobbing I was desperately trying to muffle for fear of her waking up and seeing me fall to pieces......My beautiful 3 month old son blissfully sound asleep in his playpen... So much joy, so much happiness, and blessings surrounding me and still in that moment I truly hated (and I don't use that word lightly) the world...

You see....

❣️💔In June of 2016 I almost died while giving birth to that beautiful blessing of a baby.

💔In early September 2016 my step-dad, who was my lifelong best friend, hunting partner, hero to my sidekick, mentor, supporter, my everything passed away...

‼️It is one thing to experience grief when it is an "acquaintance or friend".... Grief really does hit completely different when it comes to losing someone who is so intricately woven into every aspect of your life... It leaves an unbearable void that makes it feel almost impossible to breathe, physically makes you feel shackled in place, and soo numb, more than I have words to honestly describe...

💔So there I am 25 years old, 2 beautiful kids, living in our "new to us" government issued low-income apartment, broke, jobless, on foodstamps and medicaid and all alone....

why was I alone?

‼️The kids dad and I were not together at the time, we were both trying to find our own ways... He got stuck in a reality of having to choose between two woman and two families...

💔The reality that the kids and I found ourselves in...we were not the chosen family, we were the left over family that only became good enough when the other didn't work out...

‼️Hindsight is always 2020 for anyone who needs to hear this..... DO NOT EVER BE SOMEONES SECOND CHOICE!!!

❤️love yourself enough to know you are worthy of not being just the 1st option but also being the only option!!

❣️😔❤️‍🩹😔❣️I spent the remainder of 2016 and all of 2017 in what I call my "insomniac depression state"

❕️🤔❕️ I literally can not recall a single event or thing from 2017. it was wake up at 6 am get one kid ready for preschool, take her to preschool, take care of the baby and chores, researching every free second between waiting on loads of laundry and nap time... pick up from preschool and back to kid activities, house chores, and absorbing as much information as possible to figure out how to reinvent myself because whatever the heck i was doing was clearly NOT WORKING, I would fall asleep in the kids beds with them when i put them to bed; then wake up a couple hours later, research until i couldnt see straight, and then sleep for a couple hours; wake up and do it all over again
✨I want to say "️I should have definitely prioritized my self-care better" (again hindsight is always 2020)

❌️should of, would of, and could of GET TO be removed from your vocabulary....

❤️‍🔥💫FREE HIDDEN KNOWLEDGE NUGGET for those that read the whole post (🙏thank you by the way)

✨️❤️‍🩹If you could have done it, you would have..

❣️❤️Give yourself grace, YOU are literally doing the absolute best that YOU can right now, with what YOU are currently equipped with.

✨️❤️‍🩹what you think you should have done, is actually an auto piloted story you tell yourself based on life experiences that keep reinforcing the underlying belief....

❤️‍🩹✨️ you would have done it.... if x,y,z... that is YOU limiting your own potential based on external "blame".. the true issue is internal fear...

❤️‍🔥💫❤️‍🔥 yep if you felt resistance right there, I can almost guarantee you are stuck in the "blame loop of change".

⛈️🌈⛈️I know hearing that can feel like a gut punch, however the HOPE I AM here to deliver for you is this..... YOU are already on step 2 of the 7 steps of change... So there is a good chance you are already a lot further on your journey to bridging the gap then you might think!!!

❤️🙏I will be posting in divine timing the complete process of the 7 steps of change as well as more NUGGETS along the way... until then I am gonna go back to the reason the universe wanted me to make this post in the first place....

💖😁💪So here I am present day May 12, 2026 trying to defeat this giant in front of me....

TECHNOLOGY...

😁💖🤭 Okay y'all full transparency I thought I was far more "tech-savvy" than I actually am.

❤️‍🩹💪Here is real life healing in real time-

1. the fact that I thought i was tech savvy is a story i have been telling myself since, well...since computers came out and I was always better at operating them than my parents who had never seen one before.. (This is known as awareness)

2. I blame every external reason.... (discovery)

a.the fact that I am using a laptop that has to be plugged into a wall and is currently running a very very outdated everything and doesn't even have the capacity to update to current times

b. the phone that I am using that has no storage space (despite having external storage and trying every Google remedy offered to free it) to effectively run this business that I am building from the ground up that kind of revolves around...ya know...the phone...

3. Now I GET TO be humbled because I am quite literally feeling like the "dinosaur" I used to joke with my parents about being... (exposure)

Then I GET TO, ACCEPT radical ownership of the true fact that I am in the position because not only did I not make keeping my electronics up to date with the times a priority, just because they weren't "broken". I also didn't take the TIME, EFFORT, or INVESTMENT to keep my own skills up to date like I did when I thought " I was so cool, and tech-savvy" (ownership)

4. the next step is to make true, honest, real, raw intentions for how you want to move forward... (I have in fact already done this... TECHNOLOGY has been the hidden battle behind the scenes that is currently helping me grow and expand in very beautiful and unexpected ways....)

✨️Always remember to find gratitude for your darkness it is actually where your inner light grows the most!!!

5. Then comes as they say, "putting your plan into action" Nothing in life every changes when you only go as far as thinking about it.... Time, effort, humbling yourself enough to ask for help, and never giving up through taking (❤️‍🔥💪❤️‍🔥 my favorite and greatest lesson I learned from my first paid coach....) ❤️‍🔥✨️❤️‍🔥 committed consistent imperfect ACTION!!!!

6. the beautiful thing about this final step, which is integration.... Not only do you get to see how putting the time, effort, and investment into myself for small things like tech skills can pay off;🤑 you will also get to witness how meeting myself in my darkness and healing my limiting beliefs and blocks over the past 10 years can flourish and blossom into my most beautiful life yet❤️‍🩹🌻🌻🧡.... one that right now still feels like only a dream....

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So why does the universe want you to know all of this....
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💥💪💥If I can do it so can you!!

❤️✨️🙏✨️❤️ I am your living, breathing HOPE!

💪❤️‍🩹💪I am the living testimony that you CAN in fact HEAL (to a point) in the environment that broke you.. I am over 150 days sober and I did it all while separating from my alcohol induced toxic relationship, handling every challenge life through at me, and also building this business piece by piece with every ounce of love, blood, sweat, tears, and healing I have done....

💖I am at the ground breaking foot of making a dream that I have been dedicated and passionately developing piece by piece through my healing despite the challenges and resistance of not 1 but 2 separate relationships that said they supported my dream but when push came to shove they wanted me to give up and "get a real job" one that could give them immediate fruits for my labor...my mother and even my children question my sanity at this point, almost daily! ❤️✨️💪✨️❤️ I'm doing the hard things anyway......

💥When you finally meet yourself at the depths of your darkness, when you are broken open to the core where you are literally left with nothing but faith, fumes, and a fire that refuses to die inside of you, that is the moment..... YOU become your truest most authentic self, your highest version... YOU become the strength, the structure, the stability, the love YOU have been desperately searching for....YOU are the answer...

😇🤣🥰Well apparently divine timing for the debut of the 7 steps of change is this post... and if y'all think I was going to go back and change the post to update it, you'd be wrong...

💫💖🙏💖💫 I would never rob you of the opportunity to witness the magic of the universe unfolding right before your eyes 🤣💫🤣 it is what it is and thats why it works!!!!!🧡💪🧡

If you are ready to bridge the gap from the life you are living to the life you want to living.... comment "I'm ready" or DM me and we will connect for a discovery call......

💫I am shining my light so brightly for YOU...

💖Remember the Universe and I have always got your back

What do you want to create more of in your new world?

💜💜I want to create more LOVE, ACCEPTANCE, and WELLNESS!!!💜💜

Tell me in the comments what you want to create more of?👇👇
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We all have to start somewhere right!?!...

Success doesn't usually happen over night... It's take alot of hard work, dedication, sometimes long nights, sometimes mid-day naps because you worked too hard the day before....

Success to me isn't measured by the numbers themselves but by the value in the numbers...
5 videos is a small number to start... Right?

Wrong......
It is not just 5 videos...
It is confronting fear 5 times and doing it anyway.
It is breaking through limiting beliefs 5 times and letting my light shine!
It is showing up authentically 5 times speaking my own truth....

It may be just 5 videos,
BUT
the value and impact that comes from them, the growth that is available is not measurable in numbers, it is only measurable by the expansion one feels in themselves when they reach for their true limitless potential...

I may not be making a difference to a million people YET,
BUT
I change the lives of the 11 subscribers I have! I add value and make a difference to them!!! It only takes one person to shine their light for others to create a ripple effect in the world.....

We all have to start somewhere right!?! 😃

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