09/30/2026
Something that is very near to my heart is National Su***de Prevention Awareness Month, which is September. This being the very last day, I’ve been wanting to make a post and boy this month has just flown by. Sigh….
September 10, 2020, a dear friend left this earth. She was only in my life for a short time, but she made the biggest impact anyone would ever have on my life. She brought me out of my own depression while others, including myself, were too blind to see her own. She called me nearly every day and she would talk about a podcast she wanted to start with me and others. She begged me to come ride jet skis with her and drive her brand new corvette convertible that she ordered. She KNEW me, the real me and she knew I had that adventurous spirit in my heart that had been suppressed for so long. I think that discernment was a gift from God. She was everything I wanted to be, wild and adventurous and I lived vicariously through her adventures. She made me laugh and she made me answer difficult questions. She demanded an answer. She was a preacher’s daughter. And she called me the day of my interview of my current job. She didn’t know I had an interview that day. She called around 5:30 am or so and said the Lord had laid a word on her heart for me and it was “abundance”. I didn’t really grasp it then. I didn’t understand it. I told her about the interview and she asked if she could pray with me. She encouraged me in ways no one ever had that morning.
I’m not sure I will ever experience another friendship like that one. She absolutely loved my dog walking weather reports I did on Facebook at the time. So she sent me her own weather report as you will see below. As I walked dogs in a neighborhood in little ole Breckinridge County, she was living it up on the beach. 😊
I have so many regrets over not investing more in that relationship on my end, but even her closest friends didn’t see it. She took her life. It’s something I will never understand.
I am living that life of abundance now. It’s not the type of abundance that most people would think of. I will share that in another post. But the Lord knew I would need to look back on that conversation to see it now. That’s how He works. I will always treasure this video and my sweet friend.
And ironically, she took her life during su***de prevention month. 💔
RIP Sandra L. Lanham.