Nazareth Gold

06/20/2021

Five years ago today I had my . I was scared, nervous, and equally ready.

I've been sitting here trying to think of something meaningful to write. Nothing profound has come to mind, but then again that wasn't what I needed moments before my surgery.

I needed reassurance. I needed someone to tell me it would be OK.

Allow me to do that for you.

Everything will be OK.

Things won't look like the Bride of Frankenstein afterwards. I promise.

You will still have pain, physically and emotionally, for some time. You will take two steps back before you take one step forward.

You will reach a point where you believe the surgery failed. You will uncover other imbalances in your body and think that something is wrong with you.

You will wonder why new problems keep arising, when in fact they are not new. They were there all along but overshadowed by your pelvic pain.

You will feel hopeful, frustrated, exhausted, replenished, angry, resilient, sad, and grateful.

You will come to the conclusion that this is the best it's gonna get, and you will make peace with that.

Then one day, you'll notice you didn't feel as much pain after a long road trip. Or standing. Or walking. Or during intimacy - or after.

You will heal. You will become whole again.

You'll be afraid to believe it at first. It will be strange, but slowly you will become reacquainted with your body. You'll discover what life looks like without the struggle.

You may never be entirely pain free, but things will get better. Surgery is just the beginning. So much recovery continues to happen years later. Just when you think you've tried everything, there's something new to learn. Don't give up. Don't stop trying.

YOU WILL BE OK.

And I'll be rooting for you.❤

(To the man behind the camera, my love and life partner.. Thank you for holding my hand every step of the way.)

11/28/2020

Several lovely individuals have recently asked me about my and recovery.

Although I stepped away for a while, I feel inspired by their stories to share once again.

I want to focus on the healing aspect. This is for you if;

a) You have and were (or are being) treated.
b) The pain has improved.
c) You're considering surgery, or recovering from it.
d) You relate to all of the above and feel stuck. You're (kinda) better, but you still don't feel like yourself.

When it comes to vulvodynia, there is quality information regarding symptoms, treatments, and relaxation. What's lacking for pelvic pain sufferers is any kind of discussion about STRENGTHENING YOUR BODY.

Not because you have dreams of being the world's strongest person, but because you dream of doing the things you once did. Basic things like standing or walking for long periods of time. Or more strenuous activities such as endurance, resistance, or playing sports.

I will do my best to show you what is possible, but not right now. I'm feeling lazy. Please hang tight - no pun intended 😉.

P.S. is back.

10/04/2020

Inclusivity ain't hard. and prove just that.

The music, the dancing and choreography, the visuals... everything is stunning. I thought last year's show was diverse, but this year blew me away even more.

Women, men, gay, straight, drag, gender fluid, skinny, fat, white, brown, pretty, "ugly", whatever you wanna call it, it's represented. And I loved every f'n second of it.

My new life goal is to be part of this show and let all my bits and pieces wiggle and jiggle and not give a shh💩💩💩!

Bravo to all involved for creating such an inspiring, uplifting, feel good show. I highly recommend you watch it. It's good for your soul.

09/05/2020

Chronicles of healing;

Allow myself to feel good about myself.✔

08/27/2020

08/23/2020

Sometimes I forget how healing silence can be until I'm surrounded by it.

07/31/2020

Pausing my social media break for an important image.

I FU***NG love the . They have handled EVERYTHING that our country is experiencing the right way.

Bravo.

Repost won't let me share the video, but please watch it.

Oh, and please, go ahead and tell me how this is a disgrace to freedom.

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Every single member of the Pelicans & Jazz took a knee during the national anthem.

07/24/2020

𝙏𝙞𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝘿𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙈𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩

How many exercises, yoga poses, or daily activities have you tried?

How many of them caused flare ups and were subsequently put on your 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐝𝐨 list?

I've got some good news. If you have you 𝑪𝑨𝑵 do them (or a variation of them) with the right understanding and approach.

It starts with creating a map from your brain to your body. Persistent pain can interfere with how your brain accesses certain muscles since they were immobile for some time. Even if symptoms have improved.

What you're watching is a great way to open that line of communication between your mind and body in a way that focuses on progression.

Let's say you want to return to squats. Cool. Are you able to recruit the deep muscles of the hip to stabilize and minimize swaying laterally?

Can you stabilize while balancing?

Can you stabilize & balance all while independently moving your leg from your pelvis?

Can you put it all together and move fluidly?

When that becomes easier (and your brain understands your body is safe) what happens if you add resistance?

If that's tolerated, build from there. Can you maintain stability with resistance and move fluidly, or challenge your balance?

You see, this stuff ain't so boring when you understand why you're doing it. These movements can set you up for success when you return to whatever the hell it is that you want to do.

07/23/2020

This is the part of the video that got cut off in my last post. My ocd tendencies will not allow me to let things remain incomplete. So yeah, with is a noteworthy podcast. Check it out.

07/22/2020

Check out hosted by where they talk to professional athletes about mental health. What I love most is how male athletes are give a space to speak openly while normalizing therapy, meditation, and other forms of mental self care.