12/14/2020
I remember giving Terrence a tour of the Alaska Baseball exhibit I curated in 2015--of which so much of the content was provided by the baseball-loving historian. At the end of the tour, Terrence put his hands together and gave me a Cal Ripkens Jr.-like ovation.*
Terrence had a knack for restoring my faith in history--and myself.
Ever since my first class with him 20 years ago, Terrence has been my friend. He always encouraged me to cherish the things that mattered most in life--my husband, my children. Terrence may have been an expert on the past, but he faithfully looked to the future.
A few summers ago, my family and I stayed with Terrence in Fairbanks, while my boys competed at a little league tournament. He was tired by joyful. I loved listening to Terrence and my son Ben talk about moneyball, Coopertown, and obscure player stats like two baseball nerds. I loved watching Terrence have a catch with my son Tom. It was poetry. It was perfect.
To me, Terrence greatest gift was presenting Alaska history for the future generation--allowing his young students to envision their place in that future. He certainly inspired me, in that class, so long ago. His vast knowledge and interpretation of the past gave his students the tools "to comprehend the tumult of the current moment" and to navigate a pathway forward.
Perhaps more than anyone, Terrence influenced my own profession pathway. But his friendship over the decades--has made me a better teacher, wife and mom. A better human being.
As I sit here, at my desk, looking out my window at grey skies looming over Cook Inlet, I am practically paralyzed with sadness. My gaze looks north--to the broken golden heart of Alaska. I mourn a future Alaska without Terrence.
But, then I think about Terrence's optimistic vision for Alaska--his belief in its next generation, and what he would say to me, to his own family, to all of us.
And so, I will spend the rest of the day grading finals, watching football, and decorating Christmas cookies with my sons, and will do my very best to remember the things that matter most.
*When Cal Ripken Jr. broke Lou Gehrig's Iron Man record 25 years ago, Orioles fans saluted him with an astounding 22-minute standing ovation.