08/12/2021
Do you want to feel liberated and free?
In the wee hours of this morning, I woke up with this feeling right in my gut and chest that was dark, sludgy, slow moving and thick. My thoughts followed right along with the energy of it. Self doubt, self questioning, feeling embarrassed and stupid.
Why would this feeling be happening? My identity is being challenged. My idea of who I believe myself to be, who I think I need to be versus Who I Am.
Everything that’s tied up in my identity about what’s “wrong” or “right” about my choices, “wrong” or “right” about how I live, “wrong” or “right” about who I am sexually, sensually and authentically is being put to the test and radically questioned.
I openly welcome this questioning. Truth is liberation. Truth is freedom.
My identity and yours, is nothing but an illusion of a personality, or belief system that has been groomed by immediate family and family lineage, teachers, culture, “leaders” and others around us. This grooming looks like praise, acceptance, rewards or punishment, fitting in, rejection, giving or taking away of affection and attention. Some grooming done in love and some grooming done out of love.
Do you question your identity? If not, I guarantee you’re trapped on the hamster wheel of lackluster relationships, no range of emotions, no JOY or a deep sense of wellness in your body, life, intimacy and relationships. You’re anxiety ridden, depressed and sick. You don’t question the status quo, you accept what you’re taught or told. You say ‘Yes’ when your body is screaming ‘ F*CK NO’, energetically agreeing to thoughts, beliefs and lifestyles that are incongruent with WHO YOU ARE!!!
You and I cannot experience liberation and freedom if we don’t ask ourselves, is what I’m thinking, doing or feeling TRULY authentic to my SOUL and my unique expression of life? Does my body feel coherent and congruent with the energy of whatever is being questioned? F*ck what your mind says, your mind has had its way, listen to your body. Listen to the wisdom that wants to pour out of you.
BIG shi(f)t happens when you start asking these questions and allow the truth to be heard. The physical structure of your body changes, you look and feel lighter, friendships and romantic relationships end or begin without you doing anything, desires that you’ve suppressed have an inkling of hope that they may actually happen or do happen, real and true authenticity becomes part of your choices, your capacity to see through the bullsh*t and call it out is amplified, your capacity to experience the rawest and delicious parts of your hidden self is amplified and celebrated. Your creativity, your sexuality, the connection to your body, your capacity to miraculously heal is drastically amplified.
It requires a lot of precious energy to shove down and suppress what is authentic and real. In other words, anything that is incongruent burns up precious energy leaving you physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually exhausted. Does this sound like you?
Start questioning every single belief about yourself. What is true will be revealed, what you choose to do with the truth can either drain you or fuel you. Free you or imprison you. Liberate you or enslave you.
It’s time to get real with yourself. You’re wasting away that precious energy living for something that isn’t coherent or congruent with TRUTH. In turn, wasting precious life force that is waiting to be liberated and freed! I say this out of so much love, for myself and for you. That blissful, sensual, s€xual, pleasureful and sacred YOU is waiting for you to question your identity.