04/29/2022
Last night you came to me in a dream.
I assume this encounter happened because I found our old emails from years ago. Your passion shines through in those messages.
When you came into my life, I had never met anyone like you. I still have yet to find this amount of zest for life in one singular human. You were truly one-of-a-kind.
Our time together was cut short by unresolved emotions and then your leaving this plane far, far too early. But last night, I got to tell you to your face that if I could do things differently, I would. You looked me square in the eye so seriously and said, “well, was it worth it? “—to which I just stood there shocked with my mouth wide open. You then BURST into laughter and said, “I’m kidding! I’m kidding!”—scrunched nose and all. You reminded me—as you always have—that it’s all for something—even, no, ESPECIALLY, when we don’t understand it. One day we will.
You showed me so much love in the time in which we were so very present in each other’s lives, and that has transformed how I am able to love other people—namely women.
You taught me how to SHOW THE EFF UP in my life, and I ran from you when I wasn’t able to bring myself to do so.
We both showed each other love and grace—even when we weren’t physically present in each other’s lives. And that’s what true, unwavering love is, right? The ability to love and let go—the forethought to see where we were and allow each other to get to where we were going even if that was without each other.
Katherine girl, you have shown me more in this lifetime than I ever dreamed upon meeting you. I’m so damn glad you popped into my BUTI class and then declared that we would forever be sisters and friends.
And so it is. 🌈 ✨
