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Maybe you’re not inconsistent.

Maybe you’ve just gotten really good at leaving yourself in that moment.

The one where:
ohhh s**t... it's getting honest,
it feels painfully vulnerable,
or OMG it actually sounds like you! 🫣

Of course your voice feels hard to access, dear.

You keep leaving right before it arrives.

I'm writing about what’s really happening when your voice disappears. Because I work with what's underneath that moment (that plays itself out on repeat in your life).

Read it here: https://koaelder.kit.com/posts/whered-ya-go

(Join my email list at the bottom if you want to keep exploring your voice and the stories you hold onto that prevent you from sharing yours.)

We already know AI is dangerous when used in therapeutic settings as a replacement for human therapists. This is not only a violation of privacy. But if humans are still learning to understand their own emotions and the needs below them, why on earth would you trust a set of algorithmic calculations to do so? And what on earth are employers doing with the data they gather?

This is not only a slippery slope. It is dangerous. And an all-out assault on employees.

First, companies used AI to analyze worker productivity—now they’re using it to supercharge corporate surveillance by monitoring employee emotion, Ellen Cushing reports. https://theatln.tc/ToMYuKjr

The technology, referred to in the industry as “emotion AI” or “affective computing,” can monitor an employee through their company devices to draw conclusions on their attitude and morale in the workplace, Cushing writes. The Slack integration Aware advertises its ability to continuously monitor messages for “sentiment and toxicity”; Microsoft’s cloud-computing software Azure also allows employers to, theoretically, use AI to batch-analyze workers’ chat messages. MorphCast’s Zoom extension tracks, in real time, meeting participants’ attention, excitement, and positivity.

But the idea that emotions can be objectively measured or analyzed at all is fantasy, Cushing continues. One expert told Cushing that hundreds of studies show how difficult it is to derive objective analysis on human emotion given its inherent variability; other studies show that AI replicates the biases of the data it’s trained on. In addition, many emotion-AI products base their rubrics on the clinical psychologist Paul Ekman’s theory of basic emotions—but that theory has been widely challenged as oversimplistic and methodologically flawed.

“The global emotion-AI market is expected to triple by 2030, to $9 billion, as the technology becomes more sophisticated and more available,” Cushing writes. “It is not that hard for me to imagine a near future in which workers in all industries are pushed to work not only harder and more, but more happily and more agreeably. This is the new era of employee surveillance: invisible, AI-supercharged, always on.”

🎨: Matteo Giuseppe Pani / The Atlantic

Maybe it’s not "procrastination" after all.

Or even "perfectionism."

And maybe it's not you just being an inconsistent, uncommitted-to-yourself arse. 😏

Maybe when you interrupt yourself for the 4700th time right before you...
post something that you care about,
speak up about something you're feeling in your body,
or say the thing about what that actually matters to you,

you're not a total we**ie bag or being a completely irresponsible human and business owner.

When you are more consistently holding it in, hesitating or disappearing altogether, that's your body telling you something about how safe you feel to actually show up as you.

I'm writing about this pattern, the beliefs we all share around it, and how it shapes your voice over time.

Read it here:
https://koaelder.kit.com/posts/whered-ya-go

(You can subscribe at the end if you want to explore your voice, your story, your body, and how you show up as you in your business more with me.)

Hey, where’d ya go?

There’s a moment where you’re about to say something real…

And then you don’t.

You either soften it.
Go quiet.
Or you leave the moment entirely (energetically, even physically).

And it's not because you lack the discipline or commitment to share.
It's something else entirely...

Something in that moment doesn’t feel safe.

I wrote about this (and how to work with it) in my newsletter: https://koaelder.kit.com/posts/whered-ya-go

That moment we disappear (from ourselves and others) and what it costs us.

You don’t have writer’s block, dear.

What you have is a moment where something in you says: “Not that.”

Not that...
honest. Much. Specific.
Not that... you.

So you soften it until it's a ghost of its former self.
Skip out on it entirely.
And don’t share anything at all.

Which looks a lot like inconsistency.

But it’s actually something deeper than that
shaping your voice in real time.

I'm writing about this in real time too:
what’s underneath the “content problem”
most of us try to spray something onto and clean off the surface.

But what's underneath the glass doesn't wipe away.
It's still just below the surface, mucking up the view.

Read it here: https://koaelder.kit.com/posts/something-shaping-your-voice

(+ join my Inner Circle at the bottom of the same link to get the next one.)

You think you’re afraid to tell your story.

But it’s not the story itself.

It’s what the story means
about you
(if you let it be seen).

That’s what actually stops you.

Not a lack of clarity.
Nor a lack of strategy.
Or even a lack of commitment.

There's something underneath all of that noise
that's shaping what you say…
and (mostly, unfortunately) what you don’t end up saying.

I wrote about this in my latest email:
The story beneath the story shaping your voice.

If this lands, read it here: https://koaelder.kit.com/posts/something-shaping-your-voice

(or join my Conscious Inner Circle to get these story-led, real-time reflections in your inbox weekly-ish. I've linked the sign-up in the comments.)

You know "your story" that you're terrified to tell? There's actually a story beneath that one.

It's what's underneath your writer's blob, block or self-identified content posting problem.

It's the story beneath the story.

In my latest reflection to my Conscious Inner Circle, I wonder what yours is doing for you?

https://koaelder.kit.com/posts/something-shaping-your-voice

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