10/14/2026
One whole year without my little man.
One year ago today my heart was broken into a million pieces and the grief I was experiencing left me wondering how I was going to get through the week, let alone a whole year.
But here we are…
His last months on this earth, in his struggling little body, took me on a journey I’ll forever be grateful for. It forced me to look at my life in ways I never had before.
They say health is wealth, and it’s true.
And also- it’s when the health is lacking that you truly look at what else in life matters.
Where you’re not free.
What isn’t aligned.
A few days before he left, we sat in the sun on the front porch and had a long talk. His soul needed to know that while I was heartbroken to selfishly not have him with me physically anymore, I would be okay, and it was okay if he needed to go.
I promised him I was going to change my life.
In that exact moment, two little butterflies flew right over us and landed on his back together. And I heard the words “the butterfly effect”.
It didn’t just represent his journey, but my own that I was going through in that exact moment and continued to this whole year.
The day after he left, and so many days after that, he has sent me butterflies right when I needed them.
I planted a butterfly garden last spring dedicated to him.
Today, even though it is cloudy and the flowers are starting to brown for fall, I carried his sister over to reflect…
And there was my butterfly.
It still hurts… a lot.
I’ve cried more in the last year than I can ever remember.
And I’ve grown more than I can ever remember.
The beauty is, sometimes it’s the deepest pain that gets turned into the biggest purpose.
I lost him one year ago today, and I’m also sitting here today knowing I’ve found myself like never before because of it.
Forever my angel🦋
