14/09/2024
I want to start this with a big thank you for following this page as I have been on and off.
This year I have restarted posting much more and then my professional life took over my time. I had a heavy year, with many exams and although they were successful I am still not where I wanted or where I think I should be.
I will probably need this page as a cure as well, or better said for healing...this week my best friend has not been feeling well, on Friday I took him to the vet urgently, he is now at a pet hospital. Yes, my best friend for the past 13 years has been a cat, of course I also have real friends but somehow my cat was present in my life all the time for these years, for better and for worse, even when others deserted me, even when others criticized me, he loved this imperfect self and gave me so much healing, so much joy, he even brought a second friend in my life for which I am equally grateful. These two cats were my reason to carry on in my darkest moments, now one of them is fading away and I feel broken. I will probably find refuge in work and the other friend he brought in my life.
I will need all the work I can get most likely to numb my senses, to trick my heart.
My friend is gone...