Unbecoming

“woke up today and the sun was shining
I said, Mr. Sun, where have you been?
He told me, sorry dear, I had to go away
But never have no fear, I’m always back again.
I got to show you the dark, so you can really feel the light, you know?”
Greentea Peng 💛

The more we allow ourselves to feel, the deeper our laugh.

When you grow your capacity for grief you also grow your capacity for joy.

Don’t fear the contrasts. Trust in the knowing that in order to be reborn you need to allow yourself to disappear.

You need to accept the discomfort of letting go of that part of you that you and others are so familiar with, in order to allow new seeds to grow.

Nothing is lost in the process. This new simplicity only brings you closer to your wholeness.🌱

The celebrations on the island this weekend were such a beautiful source of joy, excitement and gratitude and in such high contrast with the rather low emotions I’ve been going through last week. It made me realise once more that I am an infinity of contrasts.
I daydream of exploring new cultures and countries and meeting new people. I crave for adventure and newness.
At the same time I am terrified of leaving my comfort zone and leaving behind familiar places and people that are dear to me and even changing my daily routine.
I love my spirit of adventure but at the same time I am terrified of every single new move I make.
Fear and adventure cause the same feeling of excitement, and since I’ve learned that, it doesn’t surprise me that much anymore.
I’ve spent so much of my time escaping to some place by the sea on my own. It’s my time to reconnect and reflect and somehow feeling like becoming an extension of the waters I love and the winds that blow me. And every single trip has been a treasured teacher and brought me both clarity and tears.
But most of all, I came to realise that it really does not matter which country I live in. I’ve had so many places I called home along the years and not a single one has ever left me. And the more I leave and the more I arrive I learn that home is not a place on a map anymore. It’s the memories I carry with me from everywhere and the bits of wisdom and love of everyone I meet on my journeys.

There is magic in the mess

Go find it💚

Welcome to this school called life. You’re here to learn.

Your teachers are love, pain, anger, envy, jealousy, joy, peace, failure, shame.

Don’t try to memorize their faces because they’re in a constant change.

Don’t try to skip their classes because while it is your choice how fast or easily you learn, their lessons are mandatory - and one way or the other you will learn.

The resource you need is your mind- make it your friend.

Listening to the voice of your intuition getting louder and louder is a sign you are on the graduation route.

Don’t take the lessons personally.

Don’t wait for others, their lessons are different than yours.

Compare, and you’ll end up repeating the lesson.

Turn everything into mirrors. See yourself in everything. See everything in you.

There are no wrong answers.

There are no coincidences.

Understanding is key.

Stay on track.

Trust.

Lovely thing to learn from water. Adjust yourself to every situation and in any shape. But most importantly: find your own way to flow.

Those who know me know how much I love the ocean, the sea, the rivers. It’s where I recharge, where I search for inspiration, where I feel free and most alive.

Maybe that’s why this analogy speaks to me.

La multi ani, tati!💛

Just wanna take a moment to wish my dad a very happy birthday today.

I feel so lucky for having you by my side to remind me of my superpowers when I sometimes forget about them and also how thankful I am for how our relationship has expanded over the last few years.

I’ve been thinking about my first memory of you when I was about 4 years old I and I got sick . I think it was mumps and I was in bed with fever. You were attending a training course at that time and when you came home you brought me a beautiful pink sweater and a small music box playing the love story soundtrack - one of my favorite songs to this day. Each time I hear that piano song I am reminded of my little music box and how special you made me feel. It’s because of you that I have discovered the world of music at such a young age, a world full of magic in which I sometimes love to get lost.

I cannot wait to be home soon and celebrate you!💚

The last couple of weeks have been so beautiful but also so full of changes for me. Everything is good. But also nothing is the same right now.

Here’s what I’ve learned.

Every time we need to make a decision or take an action we are confronted with a choice.

To do things for love means we’re doing it expecting something in return.

Doing things from love means to give for the sake of giving, not for the hope of receiving something in return.

Love is a gift and a gift given for the purpose of getting a gift in return isn’t a gift. It’s a trade. Giving means not expecting anything in return and still giving with a full heart.

Love is a feeling that expresses itself in action and what we really feel is reflected in what we do.

Actions speak louder than words.

Feeling that you are loved will always count more than being told that you are loved.

Are you overwhelmed because you feel you need to always say YES?

It might be time for you to change that blueprint. 💛

Joy.💚🌱🐠

Joy is one of our most powerful emotions because it does not only make us feel good, it also lowers our anxiety.

Joy can be practiced and we can „teach“ our brains to get better at finding joy.

Joy is a little word.

It is IN the heart but it is OF the soul.

It transcends.

It is always waiting to be discovered.

It is also a practice and a behaviour.

While we pursue happiness, joy is something we choose.

Joy connects with meaning and purpose.

Find whatever it is that gives you joy and light that spark.

“If we surrendered to earth’s intelligence we could rise up rooted, as trees.”
Rooted. Thankful. Connected. Happy…All the good things.

Along the years there were many numbers I called my lucky numbers. In my teenager years it used to be 7 because I had read somewhere that it was Leonardo Di Caprio’s lucky number and well, him and I used to be soulmates…you know, arms wide spread Jack and Rose…that story:).
Lately, I’ve been feeling that 29 might be my luckiest number.

It was on a 29th of April that my mom was born and then a few decades later she became mom for the second time by giving birth to my little sister and fulfilled my deepest wish.

When I look at my mom I see her strength and kindness. I love her big heart and the way she cares for every form of life on this planet and how she takes care of everybody in our family.

Between my sister and I there is a 6 year age difference. Every single day I prayed for the stork to bring me a baby sister and eventually it did. I still remember clearly the first time I saw her and how important I felt for stepping into the role of a big sister.

Along the years roles have swapped many times which was sometimes hard to handle for both of us. Our relationship definitely came with many ups and downs but I love to see the inspiring, independent and wise woman my sister is today and I am thankful for all the insights we share and how we grow and support each other.

Happy birthday to these two beautiful women in my life💛.

There are many forms of love in our lives including love for our family and friends or even the practice of self-love.
To me, this quote is about challenging us to accept others as they are.  Not to control what they do, or what they wear, or how they speak or act, but to view them as they are, and love them for their uniqueness, and the qualities that only THEY have. 

It's loving without judgement, or without trying to mold them into a person we think they should be, rather just appreciating them as the individual they are.  

 So many of us try to become someone we think others want us to be, and we move further and further away from the person we really are, or from what we want to do.  It's hard when there are so many pressures out there to fit a mold, and the reality is that all of us, no matter our background, really just want to be loved.

I believe that the people who really love you and accept you for who you are will be there for you when you speak your truths and follow your heart. ❤️💛🤍💚