15/03/2026
The TEARDROP that made me BAWL.
STORYTIME:
March 15, today, Sunday, I decided to attend the Sunday Mass at St. Therese of the Child Jesus in Antipolo. Sakto kasi tomorrow, March 16, her shrine will be elevated to a National Shrine status. And I just celebrated my 30th birthday as well last March 11.
While the mass is ongoing, I felt very heavy hearted and I don't know why, while praying I veered away from my usual prayers and instead, ang paulit ulit ko lang na nasabi ay, "Lord, thank you, sorry and please." Instead of my usual specific prayers, that moment ang nasa puso ko lang ay humingi ng gabay at alalay na matutunan ko na magtiwala sa plano niya.
For context, these past few days kasi, hindi nag mintis na everytime mag scroll ako sa feed ko sa TikTok or Facebook, may mga contents na palaging dumadaan sa feed ko reminding to "trust the Lord" and "there's always a right time for everything".
Then last Friday, graduation namin from training, then the usual speeches from the trainers and leaders came, one shared a quote, and the other shared and poem, and the last trainer specifically shared a bible verse, it is Isaiah 60:22, which says
"When the time is right, I, the LORD, will make it happen"
Now, going back to the mass, ayun lang hinihingi ko sa kanya, to help me trust his plans.
During the Lord's prayer (Ama Namin) nag simula na ako maluha, and when it's time to give and offer peace to each other, the family in frotn of me kissed each other, and that made me emotional.
Nung time na to kneel in preparation for the communion, tumulo na ang luha ko.
And I felt one specific tear drop that fell into the kneeler na hindi ko nahabol punasan ng dala kong bimpo.
And nung pupunasan ko na sana siya from the kneeler, I saw a familiar shape, it is a HEART. The symbol of Love, the seat of the soul and compassion.
And that very moment, I felt HIS love, I felt everything slowed down, I just looked up on him on the altar and I started crying like a child.
Truly, he sees us, and he know what we are feeling, and he will make sure that we will feel that.
And so after the mass, umiiyak parin ako, paglabas ko ng church, there's a banda playing upbeat music with their drums and lyres, kasi nga may event sa church tomorrow. And napasabi nalang ako na, "Lord, alam ko nakita mo ako umiyak no?" kasi nagbigay agad siya ng something to uplift me.
HE SEES US, HE KNOWS WHAT WE FEEL.
Ps. Pardon ng grammatical errors as I am still in awe while typing this.
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