14/02/2021
The ZSNHS- JHS Love or Rejection Stories.
Hi. I never thought that Iʼll do this thing. I just want to vent my thoughts, feelings to this guy. This will be the first and last time though.
So it all started last October 2020, I guess. When the distribution of modules started. He was the one who messaged me first, asking if I already have an answer in science. Since Iʼm polite enough not to ignore him, I replied. At that time, itʼs just pure “friendly” type of convo. Weeks and months passed, he became my “ka-duo in modules”. As much as I want to describe him, I canʼt. Lol.
My special day came and I waited him to at least greet me, but he didnʼt. Iʼm getting my hopes up. All of his friends greeted me, but he... didnʼt care. I thought there was something mutual between us. He was so good to me but probably heʼs just like that to all girls around him. As a revenge, when his day came, I never sent him. I was hurt, okay? I became cold, distant. As much as I want to tell him my feelings, I canʼt (again). Iʼm afraid and scared that heʼll dump me. Maybe this time, I wonʼt take risk admitting my feelings to him.
This morning, in my dreams, he sent me a “I love you” message. Itʼs crazy, isnʼt? Iʼm so tired getting my hopes up again for the nth time. I just want to end this. So hereʼs a message for you:
To you, I like you. But Iʼm scared that youʼll dump me, ignore me, left me. Iʼll understand that Iʼm not your type. LOL. I donʼt even care if you like me or not. I donʼt have the courage to tell you this in private. So yup. Happy Valentineʼs Day.
Your friend,
“Tia Sofia”, not my real name