There are a lot of reasons why I am the person that I am now. Like a lot of other people, I grew up with a very interesting childhood. I am someone. I am a woman.
By interesting, I mean a childhood full of arguments, ups and downs of relationships, and a battle to be in the limelight. It was not easy being born in a family of great influencers and having the interest to be one as well. I was always challenged and I always felt like I was not good enough. I didn’t have the good grades in school between my sister and I. Being overshadowed by her or by anyone
else, for that matter, always left me wanting for security and acceptance. What made it harder was I grew up in a breaking family. Yes, I experienced the pain of watching my loved ones suffer when it could’ve been so much easier if they decided to part ways. Eventually, they did but it took years before everything became final. I also got pregnant when I was in my third year of college. I had no choice but to delay my last one and half years of school. Luckily, I didn’t let that stop me from finishing. But again, I thought of myself as unaccomplished. I thought of myself as nothing. I was a single mom for 6 years. Those events didn’t shape me to who I am now but the after effects is what gave me the big tumble that forced me to get up and choose to be different…to love myself more. Since I lacked the attention I needed, I was becoming desperate to feel it, desperate enough to just do anything to get it. I ended up giving myself too easy to men that it ruined my reputation at some point of my life. I became that girl who follows people around because I didn’t know who I was. I was lost in the sea of alcoholics not realizing that it wasn’t real. I even jumped from one job to another because the people I worked with either disrespected me or toyed with me. I was getting frustrated finding peace. I didn’t know what it was until the day came where I found out that men were talking about me sexually even to women. I felt so disgusted of myself. That very moment I told myself, “This has got to stop.” I knew then that the only problem I had was I didn’t give myself the love it needed. I looked down on myself and let people see me that way. It was my fault and vowed never to let that happen again. Today, I am married to a very loving husband and two active boys. I have better relationships with everyone I encounter. I am more confident with who I am that I never settle for anything less. I am a mother. I am me. I am a wife. I am a friend. I am a daughter. I am an Entrepreneur. That’s the sequence of my life.
