Thoughts of HIM

I KNOW IT IS DAMN HARD, BUT I STILL WANT YOU IN MY LIFE.

NO MATTER HOW I TRY TO IGNORE MY FEELINGS FOR HIM, I CAN'T FOOL MYSELF THAT I STILL LOVE HIM.

I ONCE BEEN IN A BATTLE FIELD FIGHTING FOR THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. ONLY THEN I REALIZED THAT I AM BATTLING FOR A DESSERTER, NOT A WARRIOR.

MINSAN NAIISIP MO SIYA. NANABIK KA SAKANYA. PERO NI MINSAN BA NAISIP MO NA DI KA NAMAN TALAGA MAHALAGA SAKANYA?

NA IKAW LANG ANG NAGEEFFORT AT MAGEEMOTE. PERO SIYA WALA NA TALAGA.

The thoughts of you still haunts me
Being with you is what i am always hoping to be
Your presence always makes me happy
That being with you makes me clingy

I believe too much on your sweet pies
Fell trap on your false hopes of you being nice
You once gave me beautiful butterflies
Now, you left me with all damned lies

SOMETIMES WE NEED TO LET GO THE PERSON WE LOVE. Not because we did'nt want them in our lives anymore, but because we want to grow more.

Letting go doesn't mean it ends up where you left it. Instead, it is just a new step of your chapter to becoming better. A new well lesson learned. And an advantage for you to become a stronger person.

How many times do i have to remind myself, that you are are not mine, and never will be.

How many times do i have to convince myself that you loved somebody else and now happy with her.

When will i stop pretending that you someday you will even notice me in the crowd. Hoping for your care, attention and glance even once.

When will i realize that you will never ever be able to know my existence at all.