Sensual Shadow-work

Oh the many ways I keep being invited into HumanBEing over humandoing- it is a continued humbling and yet at the same time- so very much the opposite?

Topic of tomorrows "Sensual Moon" gathering is "self-worth in times of stillness". One of the things I am listening INto is if to keep holding these gatherings. I love holding them, and the feedback of the depths of the aftermath after them have been just wow

And then there is that challenge of holding things on a regular basis when being a 6/2 Projector: meaning routine is not my thing, and long periods of deep introspection is what nourishes me

In addition: I have been holding them for free- and the challenge is when hold things for free, is that people somehow ends up actually holding it with less respect. Meaning people sign up and are no-show

I love journeying with all these lessons. I just love exploration of all emotions- even if I also at the same time often will feel intense tension and frustration at time too? BUT that IS the adventure of being a human?

That is what we explore in my Sessions- the full spectrum of aliveness- meaning to welcome true deep SENSuality

Because there is pleasure in all emotions- and sorrow has an equal Or****ic outlet as joy and sx

Life is sx in so many ways- of keep being penetrated by energies and simply learning to surrender into this Human Experience?

Link in the comments if you feel called

The more clear I sm on my own boundaries, the softer//earlier I can communicate about them

I keep dropping deeper into the space of connecting with my NO

And my YES

I believe there are always new levels available to us, or more correctly nuances

A boundary isn't solid; it's fluid and depends on Energy level, connection, situation, person etc

Also attaching a "cute" picture of me, as one of the things my Mentor have reflected to me (because of course I have one; natural as I offer the same service?!)
》is that the external viewpoint of someone that haven't met me is fierceness

And I am fierce, however it shows up as in I'm rather unlimited {fierce} in my ability to hold space

In my ability to meet you//a Clientwith warmth and acceptance

It's a fiercely safe space to air and transmute shame//shadows

I loved being called out on this (another way I'm fierce, in my willingness to meet my shadows), as it gives me opportunity to grow

That's what meeting our Shadows is all about? About having the opposite to show up more authentic and real? And that's what boundaries (Yes/no) is about too?!

More real
Better opportunity to be loved for who you truly are?

What my clients share is how much I show up with warmth, love and it being a safe space to be all of them. Friends say the same

So yesterday I was scrolling through my account, seeing how my pictures doesn't really display that much

How beautiful to meet an new part of me, that thinks I need to focus on being a "badass" in order to be thought of as good at my work?

When that's just a tiny part of me, and I'm not showing the parts that really makes me a good and safe Healer and Coach?!

It's this way for all of us.
And that's why there's so much power of having people reflecting back to you honestly?!

What are you holding back, that's really your biggest asset?

My Ego is an excellent Shadow-hunter companion, I'll share a transcript of a talking out loud that lead to the beautiful release yesterday (previous post). Also attaching a video of a walk today where an orb was in all the video clips (in the comments)💚✨️

"I'm feeling too much yet not good enough. Ahh, this tension is polarity and have me attract this in my external life to experience it. I am looking for confirmation for the wound because it's the illusion that I can be in control. But it only creates an emotional whirlwind that creates the rejection I am trying to avoid {control}

It triggers a wound that sets in motion a pattern. And it's triggered by the opposite polarity. Where it is someone that is afraid of their emotions so my emotional turmoil trigger their wound. And I suppose that is feeling not good enough? Because they don't know how to meet this inner pain [of not knowing how to handle own and others pain]. Can this be true?

Hmm.. and the story I am creating is that there is nobody that's willing to feel as deeply as I. And here I'm both putting myself as victim and martyr, but also as the salvation. I am in.. huh.. what is it I am resisting to say now?

And at the same time, where can I acknowledge myself? I am very willing to feel? {Big exhale}

Hmmm. Or?

Where am I feeling inferior? Where am I feeling superior?

Where are my polarity showing up?

Ehh.. hmmm..

What is it I am avoiding to feel and acknowledge? That's underneath that wants to be triggered through attracting these kinds of sitatations?

{Big exhale}

Is it desire to feel more aliveness? Is it desire for negative attention because I don't feel like I get enough attention?"

This is a transcript of an audio I created as I was walking and wondering aloud; exploring and experiencing

Meeting myself with acceptance, curiosity and radical self responsibility

I'm not afraid of lovingly challenge myself; yet it's exactly the strong inner instinct (we all have) of not being "wrong" that is the very reason for shadows and darkness

Another paradox of how polarity exists inside of us; Because we are it all, so there really isn't any paradox

Ha❣️

It is wonderful amusing and fun the Adventure called Life?