13/09/2024
Finding Peace in the Chaos:
Sometimes…
Sometimes, I want to scream my head off from a roof top
Sometimes, I want to sleep and never wake up
Sometimes I want to throw me off a cliff
Sometimes, I want to hug me and say, I love you
Sometimes, I want to buy me some hot crisp chips and say,
"Here’s for your fight that never ends."
Sometimes, I want to grab life and shake it till its out of breath
Sometimes I want to vent and kick and claw at fate
Sometimes, I want to smile at whoever’s up there,
Sometimes I want to say, thanks for being so kind to me
Sometimes I want to pick a gun and shoot and shoot and shoot
I want to shoot till I hit something, anything, anywhere and say,
At least you are doing something."
Sometimes I want to crash into the waves, flow with the tides
Sometimes, I want to stay still by the sea side
Maybe a cool evening breeze will calm this storm in my soul
Sometimes, I want to be someone else, something else, anyone else
Sometimes, there’s no one else I’d rather be but me
Sometimes, I want nothing, absolutely nothing, and say,
"It okay, not to be okay."
In 2015, one of my protégé, sent this poem to me and today, I still feel her pressure:
Sometimes, indeed, we just want to give up...
Sometimes, indeed, we just want nothing, cos we can't seem to get anything.
So I said to say to her, and to all who are in this "Sometimes"
Sometimes, I feel the same way to.... but then....
I tell myself it can't be forever....I'd hold on...
Amen.
