Colleen Bell

06/09/2026

A little over a month ago, when the Wheel of the Year was getting ready to change, I realized I had lost sight of myself. Normally I can feel the subtle seasonal shifts. Now I feel lost & disconnected. I couldn’t even tell you where we are in the Moon cycle.

In April, I lost my job, which was a much needed kick in the pants. I found a new job, paying me quite a bit more. Unfortunately this job has drained me- from us being short staffed to me getting almost no training to it just being toxic overall. It’s pretty much abuse at this point.
To top that off I’ve been living in a roach infested apartment since March, with management taking a minimalist approach to pest control. And I’ve had no luck finding an affordable apartment which has added to my stress level.
I’m completely burnt out. My self care is almost non existent. My zone of tolerance is so tiny. I’m reactive & disconnected.
I know I deserve to be treated better but the constant onslaught is wearing me down.
I’m in a space of vacillating between fight or flight & depression.

The whole summer flew by & I realized I hadn’t spent any time in nature.

I took a day off & went up to one of my favorite places- Earth Sanctuary. Just that short amount of time helped me feel more centered & grounded. It wasn’t enough to get me back on my feet but it helped so much.

I don’t know when things will change for me as everything is pretty much about survival right now. But I Will find myself again.

09/05/2026

It was my birthday 🎉 earlier this week. I don’t normally mention it or even really celebrate it.
But this year, for my birthday week/ month, I want to use the opportunity to bring awareness & raise funds for 2 animal rescue orgs- and

I also have a spreadsheet in my bio with donation links for my friends in Ga3a. They’re still living in horrific conditions- not only tents & b0mbs but now 🐀 too. Malnutrition, lack of access to clean water & healthy food…
Please support if you can- financially and/ or by sharing.
(In no particular order)
.gaza

Thank you for helping me celebrate my birthday by supporting these great orgs & amazing families 🙏🏻💚
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/u/0/d/15WkPaa0LJWTignNWGXlsNjPxC0f2Wkv9Hod-YHkHaeo/htmlview

07/05/2026

Yoga for Lebanon
Donation class with 100% of proceeds going to mutual aid groups on the ground in Lebanon 🇱🇧

This will be a trauma informed functional yoga practice with gentle movements for the mid- Spring season.
This class will be offered live via Zoom, with a recording available after.

Saturday May 9
9-10 am PDT

100% of the proceeds will be donated tolb


Please join me in supporting these amazing organizations! 💚
🔗👆🏻

03/05/2026

“Enlightenment is a destructive process. enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the facade of pretense. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true- from ourselves to the world.
Awakening on the level of the mind is the destruction of your entire world. What is destroyed is our own worldview- all the ways we are conditioned, all of our belief structures, all the belief structures of humanity...
‘The world needs to be a particular way.’ Awakening on the level of mind is a complete destruction of all of this, and thus our entire world.”
Adyashanti

26/04/2026

TW: SA

Every day I get up & I tuck my trauma away in its safe little pocket just so I can get through the day. It’s not conscious- it’s built in survival.

The triggers used to be few & far between. Now it’s almost daily. The onslaught, the pummeling, it’s overwhelming.
It doesn’t matter how much I heal- the wound will always be there.
We live in a world where SV & misogyny is normalized in every way- from TV & movies to news.
It’s so normalized that the majority of women have internalized it- and many defend it

Much like the hell we continue to see affecting so many people here in the US & around the world, buried under the systems of oppression, this, too, feels like too much.
Why does it feel like it’s getting so much worse?
It’s not- it’s just being exposed.
It’s up to those who benefit from the oppression to wake up, do the inner work, reject our privilege, and burn these systems down.
Like anything traumatic or toxic, Things are going to keep getting louder until we listen. We have opportunity after opportunity to heal these wounds & create new systems & new patterns of relating. Every time we look away & do nothing things will get worse until we change how we navigate them.
It’s up to us.

(Though SA & misogyny overwhelmingly is violence against women perpetrated by men, it does also affect trans people & men.)

21/04/2026

Lately I’ve been feeling this intense pressure that keeps building. It’s like the release valve is broken. Everything feels like too much. It’s constant overwhelm.
Stress, anger, grief, anxiety. I’m feeling it all. Where’s the off ramp? I was feeling pressure in my chest & getting regular migraines. I was vacillating between exhaustion & stress induced frustration.

There are a so many tools to help get things moving without further depletion.
Gentle movements, walking, nature, breath. And acupuncture/ acupressure.

These points are some of my favorites. You can lightly press or tap the points for 30-60 seconds each.
-Pericardium 6- located between the 2 tendons on the inside of the wrist- 3 fingers below the wrist crease,
settles the nervous system, emotional balance
-Conception Vessel 17- located at the center of the chest, on the sternum,
good for overwhelm & grief, chest tension
-Heart 7- located on the pinkie side of the hand, at the wrist crease
anxiety, calms the heart & mind
-Liver 2- located at the webbing between the 1st & 2nd toes
helps contain excessive Yang, irritability, frustration, anger
-Liver 3- just above liver 2
moves stagnation, irritability, anxiety, stress

Some other great points for overwhelm:
Liver 14- in the 6th intercostal space just below the ni**le, suppressed anger, hopelessness, depression
Lung 1- upper chest, roughly 1” below the outer collarbone, letting go of emotional holding, grief
Stomach 36- below outer eye of knee, nourishing, good for stress & fatigue
Yintang- 3rd eye space, calms the heart spirit, good for anxiety & stress
Large intestine 4- webbing between thumb & 1st finger, moves qi, calming effect

What tools do you use in times of overwhelm?
What is the root of your overwhelm?
You’re welcome to share your thoughts below.

16/04/2026

Gentle Yoga for stress
April 23, 6-7 pm PDT *via Zoom w/ recording
100% to .gaza
Gentle movements, breath, and acupressure to support a healthy nervous system

Donation yoga for Lebanon
May 7, 6:30 pm PDT *via Zoom w/ recording
100% to .lb
Gentle movements, breath, and acupressure

Waxing Moon Yoga
May 20, 7-8 pm PDT *via Zoom w/ recording
100% to
Gentle yoga and breath for the Spring of the moon cycle.

🔗👆🏻
Thank you for helping these amazing families & organizations on the ground!
I hope to see you there! 💚🕊️

14/04/2026

April 8, 2026
Over 100 strikes in 10 minutes
362+ martyred
Thousands injured, many more displaced
Entire cities wiped off the map (Apple & Google updating in real time)
Settlers claiming land they just b0mbed
An entire country labeled terr0rist as justification

The same excuses, the same playbook, the same global response
It’s still happening
Silence
No sanctions, no outrage, no accountability

Why do some lives matter more to the world?

I’m exhausted & drained. Everything feels so heavy. My heart physically hurts.
We’re not meant to hold all of this. We’re not meant to keep going like life is normal while the world burns down around us. While gen0cide after gen0cide happens.
This is not ok.

The spiritual community, as a whole, silent. It’s so disappointing.

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t have the energy to move my body. But I need to find a way because all the emotions are stuck.

I pray for the people & animals of 🇱🇧
May they live a life of peace on their own lands

09/04/2026

I hope to see you on Friday!
We’ll be on Zoom but you can watch the recording later too.

donation yoga classes for families in Gaza.

03/04/2026

Yoga for Pal€st1ne
Donation class with 100% of proceeds going to families in Ga3a.
This will be a trauma informed functional yoga practice with gentle movements for the Spring season & the Liver/ Gallbladder meridians (side body, inner leg). We’ll also work with the emotions of anger & frustration.
This class will be offered live via Zoom, with a recording available after.
(I will be offering several donation based classes to help various families in need).

Friday April 10
6-7 pm PDT

100% of the proceeds will be donated togaza



Please join me in supporting these amazing families! 💚🍉
🔗👆🏻