12/09/2024
Am I wasting my life or am I just slowly & quietly progressing?
Lately I've been feeling like no matter how much I try, I always fall behind with my daily duties: the exercise, the cooking, the cleaning, the work, the side projects, my health, my mental health, etc. The list is long, but despite how much I do and try to exceed my own expectations, I'm still behind... But am I really behind or am I just slowly making progress?
I think that as long as we do our best every day (our best when healthy is not the same as our best when sick), we can still hold respect for ourselves and look up to the end goal.
Sadly, lots of very important things in human growth cannot be measured, so we tend to beat ourselves about how little we've accomplished in the material world.
This is why it's essential to spend time on our own to evaluate where our hearts are, because even if the world doesn't see it or instagram doesn't hear about it, our hearts know what has been done internally.
You can't measure how much more you love yourself, how easy it has now become to resist temptation & not fall back into self-destructive habits, how much more time you spend on your own & feel okay with that, how many "no's" you say daily now that you respect yourself a bit more, how little tolerance for inconsistency you now have.
Although you might not be all done with your goals & aspirations, showing up every day is a very good strong reason to celebrate your success.