09/02/2026
I donât know if youâve realized this but I love listing, Iâm a lister and have been since I was little. I have a list collection going back decades which explains why Iâm always listing here too.
So hereâs a little ponder list for you. This isnât about a big journal entry, itâs more of a let your mind ponder it for a bit and then release it and see what happens.
Iâm here to talk about it if you want or need⌠just get in touch. đđş
1. Where do I hold tension when my mixedness is questioned, misread, or made visible?â¨What does my body do before my mind catches up?
2. How has my body learned to adjust (posture, tone, expression, presence) in different racial or cultural spaces?â¨What happens when I interrupt that adjustment, even briefly?
3. When I feel fully myself, what sensations tell me Iâm grounded and aligned?â¨How often do I let those sensations guide my choices?
4. What would it mean to trust my body as a keeper of mixed knowledge (memory, intuition, lineage) rather than something to manage or explain?â¨What becomes possible from that place?
5. What would it mean to relate to my mixedness not as something to justify or manage, but as something to inhabit fully? What shifts when I let it be a source of orientation rather than explanation?
I hope these bring you to knowing a little more of your mixed self.
As always Iâm sending you love and make-it-manageable vibes only now itâs less make-it-manageable vibes and more please-make-it-stop vibes.
Love and resistance is where itâs at. âĽď¸âđ˝
P.s. this photo was taken during a photo shoot with a close friend - we did each others make up and took photos and it was one of the first times where we both felt really beautifulâŚ. Circa 1987
And this song didnât come out for three more years but it made me feel beautiful too. đĽš