Priyadarshinii

Are you consuming life or life is consuming you?

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Hello friends...
It's time for Madhuri's "Dil"se..💕
Sharing my story...
And here it goes..

Who can say for certain, may be you're still here ~
I feel you all around me, your memory so clear.
Deep within the stillness I can hear you speak.
You're still an inspiration my angel~

Life is never predicted and sometimes offers two choices:
1) To do nothing and stagnate emotionally and spiritually
2) to allow those challenges to transform us and help us find meaning and enlightenment.

This is the story about the physical loss of my daughter, Priyadarshinii.
I remember recently looking at a picture of my son & daughter, which was taken about six years ago at Nuvaraeliya a very beautiful place of Sri Lanka . I was so very happy at that point with a thought that at last my hard work has been paid off and I am able to give those happy moments to my family.
The beliefs, assumptions and values that comprised the foundation of my world came crashing down around me in September 2011. My angel daughter Priyadarshinii was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive form of kidney disease. I was not sure, after the loss of my daughter, where I fit into a world that seemed to be moving in spite of what happened to our family and me. I struggled to rebuild a belief system predicated on values that allowed my world to be safe, predictable and orderly. Her loss changed it.The intense emotional pain that I had experienced was like no other that I experienced during other losses in my life. My pain consumed me, it defined me, it was me.
On the outside, I appeared to be fine, but inside I was wracked with anger and guilt because I felt that I did not do enough to protect my daughter from her disease. My job, as her mother, was to protect her from harm and in my mind I failed miserably.
In the second year of my journey, the raw pain of Priyadarshinii’s physical absence is a thing of the past. I still experience painful moments and always will because my journey is circular without closure or a defined end point. However, rather than let my pain define me, I try to determine what lessons I have learnt from the experience. The essence of Priyadarshinii is embodied within me; she has become my partner in the service work that I do with other individuals who are looking for hope.This separation has not ended our relationship; it has redefined it. My journey today is not about grieving her loss as it is about honouring the relationship that we had on earth and continue to have today.
I will never be the same again; I am not the person I was in the picture that I took with my daughter six years ago. I could never go back to being that person with the same hopes and dreams; too much has happened. However, I am happy for the person I am becoming in the aftermath of Priyadarshinii’s loss. There are days that I wish I could have become redefined without experiencing catastrophic loss, but it was not meant to be. I have concluded that in the eyes of sacred law, 32 years was what Priyadarshinii needed to learn the lessons in this life and to teach others through her human experience. As a result, I am leading a life that I would have never chosen for myself. But every moment of it is bringing me closer to my purpose of existence.

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