Project Drama Express

This is not what it looks like!

It was a hawwtttt song.. not a baul song.. not that it matters.. as my bhaav is the same in all.. or so it seems!

Rewilding

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The writings on the wall...

Vulnerability, a prerequisite for Intimacy
Trust, prerequisite for Vulnerability
Looking into their eyes, a prerequisite for trust

Meeting a school friend after decades.. like discovering an old familiar book all over again..


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Ye ehsaas jo is pal main Hai sukoon ka.. is hi ehsaas main saari zindagi guzaarni hai..

Raja Ravi Verma ing with

Hendrix, Shweta and I

Mumbai has been a degradation of my life from a material perspective. With gas burners not working, using pans as plates, getting locked out of home, endless back and forths with deliveries.. it has kept me on my toes!

But then, what defines the human experience?!

I feel so much more in touch with the deeper recesses of my body.. I feel at ease, secure, sensual, safe in being on my own without surveillance..

Now I define my experience by how I feel in my body, in my mind... The economy, the cultural norms and biases, the irrationality of humans is beyond my control.. and will always be.. but my experience will be mine to enjoy! Of my being, my body, my sensuality..

The goalpost had changed.

Today.

What I thought was a spiritual seeking was simply seeking respite, shelter and belonging in a world where I found it difficult to belong, where I felt inhibited to express and where I did not feel appreciated...

It feels like a culmination of 9 years, of being lost, of meeting all kinds of other delusional people, of having "magical" experiences, of having extreme highs and extreme lows, of opening up slowly slowly in somewhat safe spaces in a somewhat safe manner with somewhat safe people!

I feel more comfortable now in the knowing that I do not have any cross to bear of being "spiritual" anymore...