20/10/2019
"In Year 1, I lost sight of the real reason why I wanted to do medicine. It was shrouded by my attempts to adjust to the reality of being thrown into a foreign environment alone and stay on top of my academic work. Over summer, I went to Thailand for a medical mission, hoping to rediscover my meaning of doing medicine again. It was then I realised what I have been doing has been so wrong. Yes, studying is important, but not for the grades, it is for my future patients. It is my duty to have the required knowledge to be able to treat my future patients with my best ability. It is only my duty to provide the best from myself for my patients. Instead of prioritising the grades, I seek to be able to apply my knowledge to my future patients and treat them to the best of my abilities.
A journey to becoming a physician is a journey of never ending learning. Be it new illnesses or new treatments, we are perpetually surrounded with new information and changing circumstances. In this industry, nothing seems stagnant. In the midst of the stress and chaos, time should be taken off, for yourself to recharge and allow yourself to have better energy to improve our own knowledge to better a patient’s situation. Best doctors are not those with the best grades or those that scan through thousands of patients a day, they are those who have an open mind to change, ability to empathise, those who slow their footing to understand every patient and disease well and those who treat patients as who they are, not as a disease.
Getting a medical degree is not for its perceived grandiosity even though it might sound prestigious to many around us. I’ve learnt that it is not about the prestige, it is about the little things I will be able to do for my patients, to help them get better in every way possible, be it physical health or emotional pain. Pain is whatever the experiencing person says it is and I want to be able to empathise and sympathise with the pain they are experiencing. I want to be able to cure it and if I cannot, I want to be able to alleviate it.
Moving forward, I will try my best to keep all these in mind, to ultimately treat my future patients with my best ability and as who they are, not as a disease, no matter how difficult this journey may get.
“Cure sometimes, treat often, comfort always” -Hippocrates"