02/12/2025
Inner adventures: getting to know your power
December drawing inwards- a time of inner adventure.
I am sitting at my kitchen table in my favourite chair, the chair closest to the range, feeling very snug and cosy. It’s raining and dark outside, it’s hard to believe that this time last year I was travelling and coming towards the end of my 10-week trip in France. I am not one bit jealous of myself as I sit here warm and cosy. But sitting here writing reminds me of the joy I had sitting down each evening to share the adventures of the day just gone by.
There is something beautiful about bringing someone on your adventure, the adventure fills out and I can feel you the reader there with me sharing my wonder, my delight, my curiosity and the dramas, doubts and dilemmas also.
I am drawn to share more adventures with you.
I get a notion, an inkling, a restlessness even, that there is more, more to be seen, felt, understood, experienced. The time is ripe for more. It’s not long before my antennas pick up something that excites me. Have you ever heard the phrase that a book finds its way to you? Or perhaps felt that some part of you intuitively steers you towards a person, a place, or a book, that holds some sort of fascination for you?
I have been having some fascinating inner adventures of late and perhaps you may be interested? We are all partaking in this great adventure of life, and as someone said to me today in passing, we know an awful lot but still we’re kinda stupid. So I will likely reveal some of my knowledge and stupidity as I share some of these adventures.
I am an interesting mix of a hypochondriac and a martyr. So I spend my time pushing through pain or making it bigger by spending time worrying about it. I came across a striking image of pain (stuck energy) being compared to sandcastles at the edge of the beach which the tide could not reach. It went on to say that the normal tide is like our normal breath, it only reaches so far and so cannot dissolve stuck energy ( sandcastles at the edge of the beach)
But when we learn how to breath differently, we can gently deepen our breath and just as a higher tide will dissolve the sandcastles at the edge of the beach, so too can the breath dissolve stuck energy deep within us. I think it refers to both physical and emotional pain. So striking was this image that it prompted me to experiment.
Normal breathing only goes so far in our bodies, When we slowly deepen our breath even by a little amount we reach deeper places within us and thus can like the tide soften this energy until it eventually is taken away by the tide.
I had a good pain to experiment with, a pulled muscle in my rib which started late one evening just before bed. Usually when this happens the pain can last up to 3 weeks on and off. After being annoyed for a few minutes about this future pain and what I had done to pull the muscle, I became aware of all that I was telling myself about my pain and how it was going to be going forward. I had totally forgotten what I had read about the breath being able to help. And I had forgot about something else that I had been reading on how we are the creators of our own lives, and our own experiences.
I tried to remember what I had read.
I remembered that the first thing was not to fall for what the mind says. Ie that it will last 3 weeks and it will be ongoing pain. The quantum question to ask yourself is- how do I want to feel right now? How do I want this situation to unfold?
I want to feel that it will get better fast, and that I wont have ongoing pain. discomfort and inconvenience.
So, I wondered what is actually possible right here right now.
I got into bed slowly as it was tender and lay there and thought of how breathing could be used to dissolve energy blockages, I slowed down my breathing but it still hurt to breath as this is one of the joys of rib pain. My first thought was that this is too painful so I should not breath any deeper. Then a second thought, what if that is just something that I have been telling myself. What if I can breathe a little deeper and what if I can gently move past the wall… normally I stop when I come right up against the wall/ the pain and am afraid to go any further because it might hurt more.
So l explored the idea that it may not actually be a solid wall, that the breath can slowly and gentle move in and behind the pain. I did this and I am still astounded that it was possible to go further, and that it was not painful, it was gentle, soft and respectful and a few minutes later I was fully breathing normally and there was no pain anywhere. I moved about to check if there was pain in a different position but there was none. And I was kind of amazed. This was a new experience for me and I woke up the following morning with no pain and feeling rather pleased with myself.
More inner adventure to come…
