18/07/2024
Last Saturday I decided to play a solo at my student concerts. No one wants to go first, so I would take one for the team and take that spot.
I found an epic arrangement of Sweet Caroline by Josh Burniece, since England were going to play in Euros finals after my concert - it was good of them to schedule it to not clash with us ๐คฃ
But this meant I had now given myself a tight deadline of 24 hours to learn a hard new piece. Excellent idea....
As I sat down to play, I felt quite nervous. Negative thoughts crept in. Most of the audience were friends and parents from my own children's school where I teach.
Straight up, I simply hadn't played it enough times to feel really assured, and it was quite tricky.
Understandably, my pesky inner voice set off with nagging doubts.
"What if they thought it was bad? And then I'd still have to smile and bow at the end!"
"Will they think I was showing off?"
"This is ridiculous to be nervous, at a
student concert!"
In the end, it went pretty well. I went back to my mantra:
Play every phrase with intent.
To do this I had to focus so much on the next phrase of the music, that I quickly sent that pesky inner voice packing. I forgot about the audience judging me and yes, I really started to relax and enjoy myself.
You can watch a bit below.
I'm glad I did it. I love playing piano - what better way to share that love with my students?
It reminded me so much!
1) Be a do-er and a try-er. Pushing yourself out of your comfort zone from time to time is what helps you accomplish more.
2) There will always be someone better than you. Do it anyway. (Similar mentality for park run!)
3) If you want to feel relaxed with a tricky piece, get it properly learnt WEEKS before the recital!
4) It can be properly, properly scary to play solo for your friends and family in a concert. We always go for takeaway after our kids do a concert to celebrate their bravery!
4) Grand Pianos are very handy things to hold onto if you feel a bit wobbly for your bow!