05/06/2015
Here are 2 pieces of poetry i wrote a few years back, which i feel are needed on a personal level for most of us right now.
IF YOU FEEL ALIVE
Allow yourself to feel the hurt, the pain,
don't suppress,
allow it to ripple out of you,
make you shake and shiver,
sweat and moan,
draw upon the toxicity within you,
suck it to the forefront,
so that you may release all of the disgust.
Disgust you've embodied and never let go,
disgust for old friends, now gone,
shame and humiliation for your pride,
Heart expansion,
keep your arms and hands away from your centre,
stop protecting yourself and holding it in,
allow it to overflow out of you.
Trembling inside my guts,
Shivering through my legs,
how could I ever think to walk,
in this type of state,
Open your palms,
release your mind,
allow yourself to feel.
It becomes so cold,
and the mind plays tricks,
to make you seek warmth by guarding,
and closing yourself off,
but this is not what you want,
even though it is comfortable,
it's too easy,
too quick of a habit,
to close myself off and steel my thoughts and mind,
prepare myself for a knife to the heart as a pre-emptive shield,
but it is not what I want,
just what I am used to, accustomed to,
I want to be open,
I want to be free.
I want to love and be loved, in return.
HOLD ON TO YOUR DREAMS
Hold on to your dreams
Hug them close to the heart
For like a flame they splutter
And threaten to die
Sometimes, sad and downhearted
You may lose the ability to reverie
forgetting those you hoarded before
within your hopes wrapped with faith
You may suffer much in your life
living like birds with broken wings
or struggling fish that lost their fins
but hold on to your dreams, for they soar
in despair, you may let go
of all your dreams and wait for death
calmly walking down the road
towards those who wait beyond
but what’s the use of living
when all you do is merely exist
what’s the use of breathing
when you don’t smell the roses
So don’t let your dream go
for life will be an empty field
where nothing grow but thorns
a blanket of uselessness.