30/05/2025
Little sunny beach ride - 3rd time back out since.
Still tense on corners π
Still replay it in my brain
Still a journey that both of us have to communicate constantly between eachother.
I spent WEEKS on the floor mentally - coming off all the opiates was not fun cuz the reality hit me like an absolute truck. Donβt think Iβve ever cried so much and Iβm not a crier.
Still stretching.
Still painful as f**k from time to time.
Cold weather turns me into an unlubricated Optimus prime π
But itβs getting there! After nearly 2 months I do feel sort of back to normal. I will never be a delicate flower. Have and always will be a bikers daughter. But I do now take an extra little conscious pause on using it.
Riders not wearing proper gear I canβt get my head round.
Also - Iβve earned my f**king place now - thought it was a f**king sprain - picked up bike with said smashed up wrist - offered to fix said bike whilst still off my t**s on anaesthetic. Have developed a strange sort of bond with the thing. I was told I was βrobustβ in A&E which still makes me laugh π
I deal well with physical pain - those who know me know that isnβt an exaggeration hence why I thought it was just sprained π mental s**t on the other hand a whole different story.
Thank you mum and dad for everything you do.
Thank you .x for always talking
Thank you Holly for bringing us food and being the best friend I could ever have.
Jamie for getting back in touch and providing well needed banter and injury advice.
The bikers mum Lois for telling me through tears the best thing I could do was get back on it.
And .edmondson for the everlasting patience to deal with my impatience, quite literally feeding me, clothing me, staying up with me, giving me space to be all emotional, being super dad, helping me process the whole s**t from start to finish cuz it hasnβt been in any way shape or form easy for either of us. Back end of April was quite frankly beyond s**t and most of it I canβt even remember.
But today the sun is shining βοΈ I got banoffee ice cream! π¦ and all is well again π₯° ποΈ π