30/01/2023
Update January 2023:
I am writing to let you know that as of December 2022 we decided to bring the Las Tortugas Curiosas school project to a close.
I will write from my perspective but of course all who were involved in this beautiful (and at times challenging) project are very welcome to share their story too 🙂.
During the planning process Tessa, and later Emily, and I often felt like LTC had an energy of its own - like we were being guided in the creative process and our role was to do our best to let go of control as much as we could.
After all at the centre of the project was to create a space where each unique child could know themselves more and more each day. And it quite early on became clear that in order to be in integrity with that mission and message, we as adult custodians of the project, were being asked to walk our talk.
I personally found this much easier to do during the planning process than when we were up and running with a team of 5 acompañantes and 12 kids (later rising to 16) on site every day. And it became even harder for me to maintain this perspective and balance when I became one of the acompañantes and was on site 3 days each week.
I for one completely underestimated the amount of relationship navigation we would be doing as we grew our team from 3 founders to 8 founders and facilitators. I think I can safely say it was a huge learning curve for all of us as we learned how to work and make decisions together. I personally experienced so much growth in my emotional intelligence through this process - my heart was cracked open to a whole new level and my ego took quite a battering.
Personally I've been moving through cycles of grief and deep appreciation since the end of our first year of operation in June 2022 when Tessa and Emily decided to step away from the project. I was still keen to continue but by the end of the winter term we were not gaining momentum and I had to acknowledge that I was in that "grasping" energy, just trying to keep LTC alive.
It was time for me to accept that LTC was going to live on - perhaps not physically - but in all of those whose hearts it touched. And so it was time to let its physical presence go.
One of my main motivations for setting up LTC was because I wanted my children to experience an education that allowed them to thrive in their unique way - but it was always bigger than that - it was about having an impact on the way we see children and being part of a different educational paradigm for future generations.
I thought I needed to create a space where my kids would feel nourished (in mind, body and spirit), and ironically, what I realised in the process, was that first and foremost that nourishment needed to come from me and their Dad, at home.
For now we are home schooling Mia and Jack - Tom is doing the planning and I am doing most of the ground work. I learned so much from the incredible facilitators I worked with in this project, and now I've come back to my family as the first point of community - this little unit that we've created that needs my full and complete presence (as much as possible - always messy - always giving myself compassion and learning along the way). It might not be perfect, but this focus on family first feels so right - and that's where Las Tortugas Curiosas has ultimately led me to - back to my heart - back to my home - back to my family. And I will be forever grateful for this process.
With many thanks and lots of love to all who supported this project.
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