14/01/2022
I will NOT TOLERATE My Suffering Anymore!! it's Shadow Work Time.
For the longest time I have been meditating consistently and raising my level of awareness, which has allowed me to observe my thoughts and my emotions without identifying with them, but the suffering has continued for quite some time. Now I have realized that maybe there is something else going on here. I have decided to get into shadow work and figure out what is still hiding in my subconscious mind. The thing is that just resting as awareness will probably not bring to the surface your deepest suppressed emotions and trauma. So I have decided to get into shadow work, to be more exact, Somatic Inquiry. Scott Kiloby is the one who teaches it. What Scott teaches is about skillful inquiry to raise to the surface all that you have been suppressing. Yes, it requires work. Something I have been avoiding. Because it is easy to observe and rest as awareness, but now it's time to actually put some effort into dissolving this suffering. Awareness of it just isn't doing it.
I wanted to say that I am grateful! Life is guiding me. I am thankful and excited for this new chapter. I am happy that there is a direction I am fully going into. Not half assing it. Let's see how it goes!!
