TL;DR learning new things is hard and scary. I didn't get hurt. I did cry.
I've always wanted to learn to skate. Skating has always terrified me. Before the pandemic, I'd gone to the skatepark with my kids and learned a few basic things like how to get on a board and how to go down a small ramp. I haven't skated at all since pandemic started. I've decided that I want to pick that up again when I can. A few weeks ago, I asked to teach me how to do an ollie. I ended up falling and bruising my wrist and scaring the s**t out of myself. We've been to the skate park a couple times since then and, heck, that fall has latched onto my brain like a hugely traumatic event. Even getting back on roller blades (which are much more familiar to me) has been terrifying, and it took everything I had to go down a small ramp.
This weekend, we found an empty skatepark with lots of flat space, and I pushed past the "I'm going to die" feeling and spent a while just riding around in circles. Trying to teach my brain that I was okay standing on a moving skateboard. After probably an hour, that started to feel better, and I decided I was going to go down the only ramp at the park. It's not a big ramp, it's not steep, but it's longer than the ones I've tried before. As soon I got close to it, I realized it was a bigger challenge, *cue overthinking*. I asked Kate to help me mentally prepare for what I needed to do with my body to go down successfully. And then I spend over half an hour getting over the anxiety that I was going to fall and all the possible ways I could injure myself.
All of that build up for a few seconds of doing The Thing, and then I fell anyway. I didn't get hurt. I did sit there and cry for a bit afterwards. It was terrifying and I think I'm going back to smaller ramps for a bit so I can build up the muscle memory.
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06/13/2022
This is the rest of my last post.
06/08/2022
This is a picture of my bare hand. No flowers, dots, or lines to embellish it. No stains. Nothing of interest. Just a hand. It's looked like this for the majority of the last two years.
The last two years have been hard. I know I'm not alone in that. The pandemic came in and took my career, my mental health, and my physical health. At first, I thought it was temporary, but I'm seeing more and more that it's likely not. I can't see myself starting up my business again.
Two years of being on high alert has left me with anxiety surrounding crowds and being close to people I don't know. It's a thing I need to work on, for my overall well-being, but it will take time, and energy. Both of which are in short supply.
Two years of being on high alert has left me in mental and physical burnout repeatedly with no real recovery time. Ever.
Getting COVID after two years of trying with my everything to avoid it has left me with more fatigue than before. I'm not sure if that will go away.
The constant stress of everything, the overstimulation of being home so often with my three kids, the anxiety of constant change and unknown has made it hard to care for myself physically, as it tends to aggravate my MS symptoms as well as interfere with my appetite. I'm not as physically strong as I used to be.
Today, I decided it was time to start archiving old business-related posts and to change my username and shift my Instagram profile to be a personal account. I archived a couple of product posts, and as I started looking through my art posts, the tears started flowing. I never did get to where I wanted to go with my art. I had plans to focus on developing my skills more once all my kids were in school. But that freedom brought new challenges, and shortly after I realized the depth of the personal things I had to work on, then the pandemic hit.
(Continued in comments because I've exceeded the character limit lol)
05/16/2020
Henna paste for sale! Get your order in before 11:00 on Tuesday to ensure you have it for Eid. Free local contactless delivery on Thursday May 21 for all orders over 25$. Link in bio!
12/16/2019
Some henna for the beautiful and her third baby at their birth blessing today. ❤️❤️❤️ (swipe for detail shots)
10/17/2019
I'll be doing henna at this lovely event! Free of charge for participants ❤️
I will also be doing 5$ flat rate deliveries for any Kenora henna orders. Get them in by noon on Saturday! (link in bio)
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Exciting times. Mark your calendar and join us on October 20 @ 1-4pm.
09/27/2019
Quote of the day : "You say we're just kids. Well you're just adults" (wish I got their name)
There were an estimated 12 000 people at the General Strike for Climate Action today! I left in tears after listening to the powerful youth speakers. Huge gratitude for all who made it out today. ❤️
@ Manitoba Legislative Building
09/26/2019
On s'est bien amusé au ! Merci au de m'avoir invité pour animer l'atelier de henné. Voici quelques photos des participants de mon atelier et leur belles créationsz et le henné que j'ai fait pour .lynn27
09/20/2019
Not henna related, but I took my first acro yoga class last night, and it was super cool!
Reposted from () - Such a fun time last night! You still have one more chance to check out an acro class there next Thursday at 6:45.
Have a great weekend!!
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09/17/2019
A on one of our last warm, sunny days this summer.
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Un pour une des dernières journées chaude et ensoleillé cet été.
09/09/2019
This Saturday is your last chance to get henna at the ! I'll have henna paste for sale, but be sure to get your orders in by 17:00 on Wednesday for guaranteed pickup. Remember that henna paste can be frozen for prolonged storage, so you can stock up! Link in bio.
Ce samedi est votre dernière chance d'avoir du henné au ! Je vais avoir de la pâte de henné à vendre, assurez vous de commander avant 17h mercredi pour garantir qu'il va y en avoir pour vous. N'oubliez pas que le henné peut être congelé, alors vous pouvez en acheter pour les prochains mois. Le Lien est sur mon profil.
08/31/2019
henna? Yes please! Come to tomorrow for yours. 8 to 3 😍
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Parfait pour la rentrée scolaire! Venez me rencontrer demain pour du henné au . 8h à 15h 😍
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