03/07/2021
Healing is a journey
It's not a one size fits all formula. It's raw. it's hard work.
Healing takes courage. It takes being fed up of the same ole.
I've been healing my entire life. It's a journey not a destination.
I have had some kick ass mentor and friends.
You have to be open to receiving.
You have to be open to turning yourself inside out. Even the yucky parts. Full exposure.
Release the guilt
Release the fear
Release the shame
Most of the things we carry around with us are just not ours to carry.
We carry them because we are told that we have to carry our burdens like some sort of badge of armour.
My childhood trauma is not mine to carry around my whole life but it is my responsibility to FULLY heal it.
Whatever that looks like, it is different for everyone.
Find a mentor, find a guide, find a resource, a therapist. Do what you need to do to become whole.
Believe you are worthy, my dear.
You will stumble, you will fall, you will fall some more.
There will be tears and lots of them as you peel back the layers and release the heaviness of your soul.
There will be days that will feel so heavy, you are not sure you have the strength to go on.
Then one day, you start to feel better almost like a rebirth. You tell yourself, I am not the things that happened to me. I am so much more than that.
Life starts to feel so calm, it creates this extreme sense of discomfort at first. You are so used to chaos.
You start to feel a peace you never knew could exist, a solitude.
You start to forgive the little girl inside who never knew better.
You start to forgive the adult girl who did.
You decide that you will no longer beat yourself over and over and you start to make sense of your life's choices.
Everything becomes clear.
You gain a sense of clarity and perspective you never knew possible.
You can never go back to that incredible sense of woundedness again for you are not broken.
You build a mosaic of all the pieces you've carried around and you create a masterpiece.
Is it perfect? never.
Is it better? YES.
Is it a work in progress? always.
You BECOME, who you've always been.
You lay down, the armour, the shield the protection as it is no longer necessary.
You no longer live in fear, for you are capable of handling whatever comes your way.
You are a fearless warrior, a woman, perfectly imperfect.
You are meant to fly.
He said, "you become, It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, be the time you are real, most of the hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are real you can't be ugly, except to people who do not understand"
The Velveteen Rabbit
12/13/2020
šI have to share something that has significantly impacted my life! Itās nothing new but itās too good not to share. šš«
I downloaded the āI AMā app months ago as an attempt to create positive reinforcements for myself. I was worried about going into a COVID slump, so I came across it one day and thought I will give it a try!
I am a firm believer of the power of positive affirmations (being a life coach) and what it does to our brains. Itās actually proven if we have mantras and messages of positivity, we will channel more of that energy.
This app allows you to select categories, decide how many times a day you want the affirmations to pop up on your screen and the ability to create your own.
I have about 3 an hour programmed which likely seems excessive and when I see them pop up, I quickly read and move along. I canāt tell you how much of a positive impact this has made on my life and how I feel.
Do yourself a favour and download it and see how more positive you become.
12/09/2020
Elfy is becoming quite the adventure seeker! Candy Cane zip line. Oh my!
I know I will miss these things when they are gone.
So for now I will embrace... ever... single... moment of it.
The bed time routine, the packing of the lunches, the āmom, my toe hurtsā āmom, I have an itchy kneeā
The bedtime stories, the rubbing of the heads and the backs.
The laugher
The tears
The up and down roller coaster emotions
I will hold space and hold space some more
The pre-pubescent years! Where the hell did my little boy go?
(Be there, give space, be there even more, push in, let go, make sure he knows Iām here every step of the way)
For every mishap, learning opportunity, first crush.
I will not take any of this for granted.
I will freeze this moment of time in my memory bank.
Putting my best foot forward every single day and count my blessings one by one.
There is always a blessing, or two or three. Find them and write them down for those days you lose perspective because it happens.
Say I love you all the time. Text your friends. Call your parents. Reach out. Express kindness.
This is Covid protocol. Buy the coffee for the homeless person. Reach out, extend. Take good care of yourself but do not be blinded to the needs of others, for they are vast.
Sometimes the simplest smallest gestures make the largest impact.
This season doesnāt signify happiness for everyone, it can signify great loss, great disparity, great loneliness of the soul.
But there is always hope.
Be the hope.
Life right now is kind of like this zip line! Hang on, enjoy the ride, eat a candy cane.
Holly Berry looks like she is having the time of her life!
And if you canāt that is ok too. Lay down rest, get up again.
This too shall pass! ā„ļø
10/19/2020
One of my greatest investments was my investment in myself.
Transformation
Healing
Forgiveness
I have been working on healing myself for many years. Am I healed? No
But am I a healthier, happier version of myself
100 percent yes
Do I still have setbacks, yes.
Do I have as many as I did before, no.
The difference is I am able to do personal inventory, handle my inner child with love, tenderness & compassion, and I understand her more.
Weāve become good friends now. The story I told myself is no longer.
I am not broken, flawed, a failure living in shame & guilt.
I am whole, capable, creative & resourceful.
I have everything I need.
I was created this way perfectly imperfect.
My mistakes are lessons.
My failures led me to today.
My choices were my little 6 year old girl leading the way with unhealed wounds.
And that is ok. I donāt lead with her anymore. She no longer drives the bus.
Her sadness does not exist the way it used too.
She is part of me. Yes. She is very little. Her core wound is loss and she acted that out in many ways my entire life.
But that is ok too as this helped her healing journey.
The sooner we make friends with our internal child, the sooner we find freedom.
The healing can begin.
Is it painful. Damn straight.
Most of us would rather avoid it at all costs.
Numb the pain, drink the pain, eat the pain, do anything to make it go away.
But you know what, it doesnāt go away.
It just sits idle waiting to rear itās ugly head again, in so many ways.
Relationships
Finances
Parenting
Friendships
The inner turmoil, the inner angst. Suffering. A slow bleed that sometimes scabs over only to be wounded again.
Heal Girl
Healing is freedom
Healing is peace
Healing is clarity
Healing is serenity
Healing is contentment
Heal Girl, then heal some more.
09/26/2020
As the leaves shift & fall
I prepare for another season ahead
My soul longs for solitude
I breathe deeply
I settle my uneasy mind forgetting the cares of the day
I drag my feet along the grassy terrain
I listen to the sound of the crunchy leaves
My mind quiets and my heart fills with gratitude
I feel the pause and the stillness that surrounds me
I am ready
My mind wanders for Iāve been here before
I anchor into the unknown
I breathe quietly letting my shoulders fall
Lay it all down I say
I embrace the inner child and soothe her gently
We are friends now
It is safe
My healing has come at a cost but I am no longer afraid
I know Iām meant to be here, itās my birthright
My heart beats fully
I love her I say
43 years of soul searching maybe she found her way
Let down your armour, the fight is over
Walk steady with your head held high
You are worthy of great things
Youāve done the work
You have nothing left to prove
Rest sweet child, rest
A new day has come
09/22/2020
Iāve got sunshine on a cloudy day. Itās my reminder that my go to is sunshine even during the cloudy days.
I have it, we all have it. Claim it.
Iāve had to create my own inner sanctuary lately. Things that bring me comfort.
We canāt control the clouds but we can create our own sunshine. Things that bring us joy.
I crave comfort lately. This is my new desk set up which Iām loving.
My beach seaglass
My Buddha
My Elevenlove candle
My glass lamp
I love creating ambience, peace. It makes me feel serene.
I want beauty
I want nature
I want fresh air
I want genuine connection
I want good eats
I want music that fills my soul
My house is filled with reminders of things I love and want to be surrounded by
Cozy blankets
Good books
Fireplace
Warm fuzzy socks
A good podcast
My diffuser with essential oil
What do you do to create your own inner zen? What does your sanctuary look like? If you donāt have one, start thinking about what it would look like?
Smells, textures, beautiful colours, light, candles, rocks, shells, glass, crystals, blankets, pillows
09/17/2020
This girl she smiles with her eyes.
She keeps me going through my tough days.
Her positivity oozes
Itās contagious š·
I hope she never loses her joy, her confidence, her assertiveness, her zest.
She is sweet & salty
She is assertive & kind
She is compassionate & firm
She knows her worth
She knows whatās right, whatās fair
She calls it out
She sings, she dances, she laughs full belly
She is generous, kind and thoughtful
She is grace & gracious
And when she isnāt she speaks, her truth, her feelings, her thoughts, her sadness. She speaks up. She does not shrink or act small. She releases and feels.
She worships and sings Godās praises.
She is faithful
She might be small but she is mighty.
She is all that is good in this world.
08/30/2020
To good not to share! Captures my transformation and pieces of my story. My life has never been the same.
If you relate to my story and are wanting to step into the next best version of yourself, message me!
I would love to help you move forward.
Saying YES to myself was the best thing I ever did.
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08/22/2020
I havenāt been on here for awhile, Iāve taken some time for me. To regroup and recharge.
Thatās the thing, self care is important for everyone
A little bit of maintenance never hurt anyone.
Realign, reassess, recalibrate
Iāve also been doing my own therapy so I can be the very best me and show up optimally in every way.
As difficult as it can be, trauma and healing can creep back in saying āyouāve got some more work to do!ā
But I thought I was finished?
Itās a life long process of learning and relearning. Old patterns, thoughts and negatives beliefs creeping in.
This is the story Iām telling myself, be careful as it may not be true.
The mind is a powerful tool.
Kindness and grace have been my friends.
Iāve had good days, hard days and days in between
Iāve had days where I was bone weary and just couldnāt seem to gain momentum
Navigating a pandemic has not been easy and surrendering to the feelings has been difficult
Because they are not always comfortable
The swirling of emotions inside on any given day
Be kind to yourself sweet soul
As weāve entered uncharted territory and with every new adventure there are obstacles and challenges
We must get our minds and bodies right
And surrender to what is..
Be present and pause for we donāt know what tomorrow brings.
Just for today, all will be well and if itās not there is always tomorrow.
08/06/2020
What are you grateful for today?
07/30/2020
Couldnāt resist who can relate šš¼āāļø
All the feels š
Sending love to all.