Honouring Alexi

Letter To My Son. After a weekend retreat alone in meditation and fasting I caught a glimpse of the truth of what Alexi would want me to do in Honour of him.

Be happy mom. Live your best life mom. Create your own art. Smoke those ci**rs for me. Don’t try to be dope at skateboarding… or at least be careful since you are getting old. Forever in my heart Alexi. I love you forever.

Not much more to say… these are the moments that life is really all about.

No he did not die from Cancer… it was just a shirt he loved to wear.

He always like to make a statement and he had some serious style of his very own.

But… he really did leave us and he really is gone.

The one night at a party or that next time you want to escape please don’t do it.

Forever loved and never forgotten.

We love you Alexi.

We pray
Even before we know God
We cry
Tears of joy when we see you happy
Tears of pain when we see you hurting
We want to fix the world
Fix your situation
Teach you to fix it on your own
We love you
We love who you love
We fight wars in our own mind
Trying to learn
And know whats best for you
In the end we end up on our knees praying long before we even knew what trouble is lurking.
We know it
We can feel it
Something is wrong
Not just with you but with the world
But again all we can do is pray
All mother know this
Even if we do not know God
We pray
And this is true for all mothers
Absent or present
We are praying for you

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It is nice to hear his voice and see that smile. The water was cold and the views insane. He loved a good adventure. I hold him up and remember that love and light but I really wish he was here with us. Stay safe out there. The risks are real and it can happen to anyone including anyones child.

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