15/02/2022
Do you know that feeling when you wake up in the middle of the night and it’s cold and your diaper feels heavy. And there are so many strange sounds all around you, and it’s dark and scary. And you get a hit in your head and it’s your hand that’s on its own adventure. And you can’t control it at all and it flings itself around and scratches your face and pulls at your hair. And your legs start kicking off the duvet, even though you’re cold as it is and you try to make it stop but they have their own will. And so you’re lying there completely helpless with flailing limbs that want to do everything, but none of the things you want.
And you can’t find mom. And you call for her and you find yourself feeling really scared. What if your beloved mom doesn’t come for you. You can’t imagine anything worse and you start to cry because you miss her so terribly. You have never felt as alone as this very moment.
And then she is suddenly there. Standing right by your bed and looking at you with worry and love. And she is the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen. And you grin up at her with happiness and relief. You don’t think you’ve ever felt as happy as this very moment.
And she picks you up and holds you close. And she smells like herself, and also a bit like you. Like milk and safety and love. And it’s the best smell in the whole entire world.
And she is warm and safe and soft and her hands caress you and she feeds you and hums your favourite tune. And you love her voice. You’ve known it far longer than you’ve really known her. It has lulled you to sleep and made you laugh and calmed you when you were distressed. It is the most beautiful voice in the whole entire world.
And you get to lie right up against her and you feel your entire body start to warm up again. And your still cold hand starts stroking her and moves up towards her neck and accidentally scratches her. Stupid uncontrollable hand. But mom doesn’t get angry. She takes your stupid hand in hers and it turns all warm again. And this is the best feeling in the world. Right here in mommy’s arms, with your hand in hers. Even the diaper doesn’t feel as horrible anymore.
And you feel your eyes getting heavy and you know that everything is okay now cause mommy is here. Your mom. Your wonderful, incredible mom who always looks after you. Night and day.
You look up at her one last time before you fall asleep. She looks tired and her eyes are closed, and yet she is still the most magnificent thing you know. How amazing that she wants to sit here with you in this moment. How amazing that she will always sit with you for a bit when you need her to.
You smile to yourself. How lucky you were that she became your mom. The most perfect mom anyone could have asked for.
You knew, even before you saw her, that she would be the best thing in the world.
Oh how you love her. Your mom.
❤️
Words by: The Mommy Poet
The Mommy Poet
04/02/2022
This beautiful mama and midwife has the most beautiful and most ‘real’ breastfeeding shots from later in her journey ……
But these early ones with a fresh babe and a cute toddler are ❤️
31/01/2022
It’s all fun and games
And sexy breathing exercises for birth
And romantic plans about how he’ll take the baby while you do yoga every day
Until you’re 10 days postpartum
Still bleeding and soaked in breastmilk
Riding a roller coaster of hormones and sleep deprivation
And your lovely partner forgets to pick up a smoothie on his way home from the grocery store
And you lose your sh✨t
Like sobbing into the bathroom sink
Like cursing his mother
Like wondering why you ever procreated with someone capable of such unimaginable selfishness
And then, when the storm has passed, and you’ve had a snack- you realize
Two shaky, raw, sleep deprived humans
Trying to be life rafts for one another
While sinking into the depths of exhaustion and stress
Keeping the tiniest, most fragile, precious being afloat
Is hard AF
We weren’t meant to do this alone
We were not meant to be sent out to sea on a tiny little life boat with no map
Even the most loving, stable partnership can sink under the weight of operating in survival mode while finding your footing as parents
So, if you’re out there, treading water
Buried in laundry and breastmilk
Surviving on freezer pizza and three hours of sleep
Thinking mildly unkind thoughts about the person you chose to parent with
Because he can’t seem to calm the baby or remember your smoothies or grasp the depths of the earth shaking transition you’re navigating
You’re not alone
And it will get easier
One sleepy, shaky day at a time
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28/10/2021
The third trimester
They say that is the longest one, as you tend to count the days at the end towards the unknown final date when you will meet your baby.
Usually if you haven't started organizing all the baby stuff, you will do now, and if you haven't looked for childbirth preparation, now is the time. If you are planning a hospital birth I can't stress enough how a good preparation is important and if you can afford a doula with you, go for it, they will help you and your partner be more confident in the process and it's always good to really know someone that will be in the birth suite with you, your partner or birth supporter will be able to enjoy the process with you and your doula will be focusing on the two of you so you both can engage deeply in the most exciting time of your lives.
In case of a planned homebirth you will already have 2 midwives that you already know, they will be mostly doing their amazing job focusing on you and your baby's health making sure everything goes in the smoothest way possible and your doula would still be there being able to give you guys all the emotional and physical support through the process.
I'd recommend for you to enjoy every moment as you will miss being pregnant, all those baby movements (Even the ones that wake you up during the night 😅). It is truly the most amazing moment in life, to be part of the creation of a little human.
P.S. I'm on the way to finish the cloth nappies that I've started last year, remember? 😅 Bare with me, they are so beautiful, will be worthy 💜I'll announce the release date when I finish them.